listen,think,talk,advice...decide?no!

listen,think, talk ,advice but nt decide.

this is my policy.

i listen to friends.

i will use this rule.

i listen to wht they talk.

analyse their problem,

talk wht i think,

advice wht i think is right.

in the end,the conclusion should make by themselves.

i shouldnt interfere wht they decide,

and i shouldnt help them decide..

cause they are the one going to get the result.

advice is only an advice

it may influence the decision

but this isnt the one make the decision..

the particular person will think and decide wht is correct and wrong,

and wht is the correct path way to walk..

i dunno my policy is right or wrong.

tell me if i am wrong.

for me, this is quite a useful and correct rule.

lion dance competiton..

sorry guys..

i tot the lion dance is in the morning or evening..

however,

it seems the lion dance is at nite..

i think i cant go and support u all.

gambatek,..

u guys can do it!!

last day.

this is the last day for 2009

here comes the first day of 2010

i nt really remember wht i have done in 2009.

i nt really plan wht to do in 2010..

this is the last day..

a lot ppl will celebrate,

says

"heres goes 2009.."

for me,this last day doesnt have much meaning to me..

for me,

things happen this few day is more significant to me..

i heard a lot,say a lot,think a lot..

things happen on me ,on others,

all brings a lot of thing towards me..

year 2009.

year 2010.

ppl going to change,

i gotta cope to it,

and accept the changes..

problem is nt really a problem for me,

the problem is how long i take to solve it..

new year,new self..

this wht other self said..

for me,

i jus wanna maintain..

i wanna be the ah black,

whom ppl who know me..

ah black,in 2010.

touch the limit,

break the limit,

burn my soul,

form the flame.

its more than enough..

things happened,

nothing can be changed.

i am glad tat i chatted with u...

the answer u gave me,

is more than enough..

thanks..

i am glad that u tell me the truth..

however,

i am here to clarify,

i hope to be ur friend anyway..

if u really scare of me..

tell me why..

i will try to explain ur doubt..

if u wan me to leave u alone..

tell me,

i will,if tat's wht u wan.

Taboo

This few day,

something happened..

that reminds me a taboo i set few years ago..

i came back from west malaysia,

i saw the taboo..

i go and touch...

cause i think time might be about to break the taboo..

and i end up with pain and aches.

in short.i lost a friend.

taboo?i guess i should touch it..

no1 knows wht exactly will happen.

and no1 will know.

isnt it a good way to solve things,

if i jus leave the taboo there?

when i am alone..

when u r alone,

wht will you be doing then?

for me,

i cannot let myself alone..

for me alone means,

free and nothing to do and no one is around you.

i hate alone,

i hate free.

cause it keep my brain thinking.

thinking something unnecessary.

if i am with friends but i am free,

it will be ok.

cause gt friend to chit chat with..

if i am busy with work only,

it will be ok too..

cause busy keep my brain full,

doesnt leave it have any space to think something unnecessary.

be frank,

i dun have much good friend tat will keep in touch,

my handphone wont have anyone sms me..

pathetic..

for friends tat dun like me,

they will be quite happy to see those line.

since i have few companion,

then i guess i can only make myself busy..

it make me tired,

my tired brain wont think too much..

i dunno how ppl look at me,

i dunno wht ppl think,when they heard "Tan Si Nan"

but i am sure..

not much ppl really understand me,

even me myself dun understand myself.

i am who i am..

i admit..

i am pathetic..

i try to forget it..

but i only think about this,

when i am alone..

i hate..

when i am alone..

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被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。
(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目
(3) 写完请点10位朋友，不可不点
(4) 点完后请通知那10位朋友他被点了
5)不可点那位点你的人^.^ V被点到的：
1. chua
2. clement
3. ant
4. jia chee
5. xiao bai
6. jay
7. grace
8. chun sian
9. yan qian
10.bong

（我点朋友，不一定是写部落格的）

1.[05号的人脾气怎么样？]任性~~
2. [07号有男/女朋友吗？]她说“不知道”
3. [你对02号的第一印象是...]野狼一只
5. [ 04号最怕什么东西? ]？？麻烦
6. [ 你对09号的第一印象是... ]ying ler 的好朋友
7. [ 01号认识02号吗? ]当然~我们都是兄弟~~
8. [ 那10号认识03号吗? ]知道~但是不熟
09. [ 06号相不相信这世界上有鬼? ]不知道……可能？
10. [ 08号的星座是? ]我不了解星座~
11. [ 你跟03号的关系如何？ ]已经到了普通人理解不了的程度了。。。hiak hiak hiak...
12. [ 05号读哪呢? ]美中 ==
13. [ 你跟07号和09号，哪个比较熟? ]yanqian
14. [ 你对03号最深刻的印象是... ]智力型的男人
15. [ 07号的兴趣是？ ]吃~！！
16. [ 你喜欢和02号聊天吗? ]喜欢~但是2号是个大忙人
17. [ 06号喜欢的人姓什么？ ]忘了～
18. [ 10号是个怎么样的人？ ]这个由大家自己想吧～
19-[ 08号对你而言是？ ]好朋友
20-[ 04号有跟你吵过架吗？]印象中。。没有～
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的: jaz
2. 你们认识多久呢: 还不到一年
3. 有没有对他很想说的但是说不出口话？ 没有吧？
4. 她/他对你来说是... 一个朋友~
5. 你觉得他/她的个性如何 ? 还不是很熟
6. 请问他/她的电话号码最后四个字是？ 你说呢？
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
問 : 对你来说，刚刚被点到的人里哪个最重要？

说了会制造混乱-。-

問 : 对你来说，什么样的求婚方式最特别？

告诉你就不特别了。当然，我有我的一套

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問 : 一天你要是死了，上帝让你带一样东西上天堂，你会带什么？
悲伤，（悲伤都带上去了，大家不就没悲伤了么？）

問 : 吵架时最讨厌对方...

无理取闹

問 : 如果你找到了阿拉丁神灯但只能许一个愿望，你会想要...

某些事情没发生过。

問 : 你会选择爱你的人，还是你爱的人？

我爱的人，因为爱我的人，若我不爱，却贸贸然去接受她，不是对她不公平么？

問 : 每当窗外下雨时，你会想到...

在世界各地的朋友们，你们好么？

問 : 你会提出什么样分手的理由？=X
什么原因分手，

就说什么原因。

但若是我发现她骗我，

我不会告诉她这是分手的原因，

因为，她想隐瞒我，

不就是不想让我知道么？

問 : 你想在什么年龄结婚？

找到适合的人，适合的时间，适合的地点

問 : 小时候印象最深刻的事是？
大概没什么印象吧。。记忆力不好啦

問 : 你对爱和喜欢有什么不同的看法？？？？？

喜欢会变成爱。喜欢有很多种。但爱未必会变成喜欢

secret

everyone have their own secret.

someone's secret,

we have no right to go and figure it out.

everyone keep secret for their own reason,

for me,there are 3 type of secret,

1st.

secret that will keep it in deepest of heart,

not even best friend will know,

the secret only know by themselves

2nd.

secret that let some specific ppl know a bit..

they are waiting correct ppl to ask at the correct time.

3rd.

secret,that even let ppl know.

but will nt let optehr ppl know further detail of it.

one's might contain all 3 type of secret.

i dunno which secret i have the most..

i have my own secret,

bt on the same time,

i am also the secret keeper for ppl..

i dunno how much ppl believe me,

but i appreciate ppl that believe in me

i dunno why i write this post,

but i jus write it..

mayb too bored stay at home gua..

CHLD

CHLD stand for

Chung hua Lion Dance

i come back at 23th,

24th is their ending session,

i was told to go to watch their 24 season drum performance..

however,i wanna say taht,

this camp is quite a success,

and the season drum performance is marvelous.

Louis,

u done a good job leading them,

jim and ohter AJK,

u all did well for the camp,

forget every conflict happen before,during and after the camp,

cause these conflict are the thing tat make the camp successful,rite?

u all are very successful!!work hard ya!

why?

well,

this post is to a friend,

i am nt scolding or wht..

jus wondering..

when one's propose to another one,

dun care is male propose to female or female propose to male,

it takes a big courage.

even though everyone wish the outcome to be good.

but thing like that doesnt happen everyday...

but after propose,

wht will happen?

in chung hua, the first gal i propose,

end up with no conversation for 2 years,

luckily nw she is ok to talk with me nw,

and she is studying at other place nw..

at least,we can still talk..

2nd gal,which become my first gf,

after we break up, she still can talk to me,

i am glad that i din lost a friend.

she nw studying at other place,

and have a bf also,

i am glad to hear that,

third gal,whom i propose before i go kampar,perak for my further study,

i still try to let her understand that,

i jus wan to be friend back,

i propose last minute,

is due to i wanna let her know,

and i dun wanna myself to regret.

saw her few days ago,

talk to her for few lines,

asking her address so i can post the present i prepared for her to her house,

of course, as a friend.

at the moment i try to get her address,she say no pen and paper,

then i tell her to sent to me through handphone,

actually,i am going her a chance,

i dun wajnna force her..

she really dun wanna sent to me,

then i need to figure it out why,

i din manage to see her online,facebook or even msg.

she din reply me,

her blog become private,i think and move around-.-

sometime i think,

is she really wanna ignore me?

if she still scare tat i will still like her,

then i would jus say,the gal i like nw is nt her dy..

later i will provide further info :p

however,these are jus my thinking lar..\mayb i think too much

to her, i jus wanna say tat..

dun ignore me lar ~,

be friends,k?

even though i wondering will she read my blog..

hahaha..

well,

for the forth gal,

i am nt going to propose yet.

since propose nw will be against my principle,

i wont touch gal with bf,

she gt a bf nw,so let her be with her bf,

no point trying to rebut her with others,

she is nt a thing,but a human,

she gt her own decision,

so jus respect wht she did.

this post is written sincerely from my heart.

hope she will read it,

or hope she will reply my message~~hahahaa

back home~

hahah~i am back to miri dy~~

well..

i jus stay here a while,as usual..

i will be leaving at 6th of jan..

Back Home..

well..

as usual..

the best place,is home..

aahahha..

a lot of things happened in my house,

a bit messy..

this time,

i come back..

gotta try to solve everything..

but still depends on the situation..

by the way..

today i use Mas to come back miri..

and i realise..

their food r really shock me..

a rice,mineral water and a cake, these are usual food..

but they also serve with...

Baskin Robin ice cream-.-

hahaha...

however,

i keep it for my family..

i believe they din eat that before..

good things are meant to share rite?

haha...

narh..gotta sleep now..

nite~

exam~~

yo hoo~~tomorrow exam..

but haven finish study..

haha..

after tomorrow then the next exam ill be next tuesday..

then..

the next thing going to happen is..

i go back miri..

yahoo~

finally can go back miri..

after around 2 month..

hahaha~~

by the way..

the title for this post is exam..

wish me good luck ba~~

解铃还须。。。。。

the title is a Chinese phrase.

i din complete the whole line,

since,i cant achieve it.

this Chinese phrase means,

problem need to be solved by the ppl who start the problem

indeed,

i solve it.

so now,

i am ok dy,

i solve it in a correct way,

which myself never expect.

i talk, and clarify,

that particular understand,

and we are happy with the result,

i need to say thank you to her.

because of her,

i manage to make my mind of on a lot of things.

hahaha..

i say i din solve it by my own,

this is because some of my friends helped me,

my toilet mate,calvin,

my toilet-companion,ant(remember we 2 wash toilet together?)

and a lot.

my mood was damn teruk tat time,

bad tempered, and a lot,

which i never thought i will,

however,

i manage to solve it,

after i think for a while,

it takes courage,

but i am glad i manage to vomit it out.

hahaha..

for friends tat worry about me,

thanks,

ah black is now ok dy.

Thanks.

and of course,

thanks to her too.

i din mention her name out,

cause i dun think she wan,

for those who knows,

please keep it as a secret.

if she wanna show who she is,

she will.hahaha.~

*if i scolded anyone,i apologise.

again?!

again,

i am here.

currently,

sitting in front of my laptop,

listen to rock song,

to busy up my mind.

looking for things to do,

meaningless or meaningful

anything it would be.

i am escaping rite?

wait lah.i will be ok.

i am ok.

lol~

after 15 minute from the blog post i posted-.-

i realize i have nothing else to do.

spam blog i guess.

my house now damn silent.

everyone is still sleeping,

while i am the only one opened the door.

at here,

i wanna apologise that,

sorry for my blog post that is damn boring.

now,

my brain only come out with some words

"Write! black! write more"

mayb my brain dun wanna study gua..

well

since today is the last day for the short sem,

i guess i should wish everyone enjoy their holiday~

and also.

i gotta wish the team that having a video shoot at kampar is successful.

tat's all,i guess..

mayb i will come back in 15 minutes to write another one,

who knows?~

Today.

Today,

i am damn free.

canceled everything.

Ntg to..?!

Smile~smile~

arg~

delete?

i dunno wht i am doing right now.

2.12am now.

tomorrow hv class at 8.

keep reading a blog post over and over again.

listen to a song over and over again.

i cant feel myself now.

should i end my blog?

suddenly this come out to my mind.

cant sleep.

wonder why.

even though if i know why,

jus wanna ignore it.

i dunno wht i wanna do now..

spam blog is the only way,

i guess...

black,u will understand de,rite?

"black,u will understand de,rite?"

i keep telling this to myself for thousands times.

but,am i?

or jus for the sake for giving myself a reason?

a reason for everything.

damn.

black,u will understand de,rite?

i jus realise~

well..until nw,

i jus realise.

i really have something tat wanna write here,

but cannot write here.

sienz.

i am changing,

but why?