some good sentence..from a friend

I hv a friend,
she is my senior,
but she is younger than me,
so i guess it will be better to call her as my friend..
haha..

well..
today,i met her at the cafeteria,
she gave me few rolls of paper..
well..inside the paper..is jus a simple sentence..
well..mayb for some others ppl..
these words doesnt mean anything..

however,
this is made using someone blessing..
these sentence are quite meaning full..

i share to u all ba~~


A SMILE FOR YOU AND MAY IT BRIGHTENS YOUR DAY!



YOU CAN KEEP YOUR MONEY,
BUT PLEASE,GIVE-AWAY YOUR SMILES~!
GET ONE IN RETURN~!



HOW MANY '' HI''S AND ''HELLO''S HAVE YOU SAID TO OTHERS TODAY?



SAY ''CHEESE..''~!
I AM LOOKING AT YOUR SILLY SMILES~!



SURROUND YOURSELF WITH LOVE AND LAUGHTERS EVERYDAY!



YO FRIEND~!WAVE AT ME AND SMILE,WILL YA?



IT IS BECAUSE OF YOU,I ENJOY MY LIFE IN THE CAMPUS,
THANKS,FRIEND



SMILE PLEASE,AS BIG AS CRAYON SHIN-CHAN!
HA-HA..!



JOY IS A GREAT FRIEND,FIND IT AND NEVER LET GO!



HI,HOW ARE U FEELING TODAY?
HERE,HAVE A SMILE..

haha..i think these words suit me..
cause the SMILE word..
haha...

hope she doent sue me for the according to akta hak cipta..
haha..

sorry and thank you ya!!

SMILE~
Black Tan

Lecture class!

wow...
i hv my class at 9,
i cycle thr..the path was so hard..
cause the gt slope..haha..and the sun was so hot..
today,i hv my bio class..
my lecturer is a women,
biology is no so easy for this time..
the bio textbook for U is 4 times thicker than out school de..
the front size is about 9..
@@ so..."happy" when looking at it..
haha
well.tomorrow i gotta hv my bio pratical class..
same words----looking forward for it..

SMILE~
Black Tan

New Life Is Jus Begin

TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!
haha..tomorrow gotta hv my first lecture class..
hope the class is interesting...
looking forward for it...
from tomorrow,
my new life begin..
mayb others doesnt think so,
but it is new for me...
getting to be a new way,a new road for me..

Gambatek,Black Tan

by,black tan

i wont put myself in risk on others again!

narh...
sometime,telling a secret out on some1,
it is putting urself in risk on tat ppl,
cause if tat ppl say out,
it may kill urself..

i told one of my friend a secret,
i tell the secret out jus hope to help him in certain situation,
i believe him,i trust him..
i am trying to help,
while he destroy the trust i put on him..
tat doesnt matter..
for now..i regret..i should tell him,
i should help him..
narh..
i cant blame any1..
i am the one who put myself in risk..
as everything cant be helped,
i guess i gotta del his name from the name list of ppl i trust..
and i gotta lost another female friend..

sometime,i ask myself..
WHO SHOULD I TRUST?
narh...
hard question with no answer...

learn a lot,know a lot,realise a lot....

yesterday was UTAR orientation ice breaking and tele-match..
well..every games was jus so interesting..
learn to hv team work there..learn to sacrifice for ur group and a lot..

i also know a lot of ppl from this ice breaking,
gt ppl from sabah,Pui sing,
gt ppl from johor,Sing Pei,
and a lot...

in the afternoon,one of my friend received one sms,
the sms is by his cousin,who was one of the registration AJK during the ice breaking
she apologise to treat my friend as a stranger..
and explain the reason..
this scene i learn something,
from my friend,he teach me to forgive ppl,
from his cousin,she teach me to hv the courage to apologise,
other than tat,his cousin also teach me tat,we should be the manager of our emotion,
so we wont do wrong thing according to our emotion

yesterday,because of some thing happened,
i learnt something..
and i decide,i wont help couples again
cause,i hv 2 friends,they 2 love each other,
but scared to let each other know..
scared this and scared tat..
narh..
as i am the one know,i trying to help..
in the end,
this couple cant be together because of some issues,
i am the one who get scold..
narh...
wht for i help then?
if they become couples,no1 will thank me,
if they cannot,both of them blame me..

so in short,even if i know my friend love each other,
i wont help

烧阿！

1st day

今天是上了大学的第一天orientation..
早上下着 雨。。
和我同屋的一个朋友，Michael，便很慷慨地叫我们搭他的车，
到了学校。。。恐怖到半命。。
我们排队了一分钟后。。
排队的队伍。。。长到。。看了都会感动到哭阿。。
因为我们有人载。。

到了下午。。
大家同一时间lunch..
cafeteria 酱大。。不过只有一档。。
排队长到。。。。。。。。。像万里长城酱阿。。。
所以就看破。。。不去吃。。。

大学的orientation和学校的orientation不一样的地方就是，
大学的orientation大多数是靠自己，
要什么register什么。。。
很独立的。。

基本上就是酱咯。。
明天就ice breaking and tele-match 了。。
looking forward for it..

I found MY ANGLE!

当我在kampar,perak的UTAR，
我发现了一个女神，那个最爱我的女神，
在我孤独的时候陪伴着我，给我她最满的爱，
我没发现她在我生命中，是那么的重要，
我很后悔我没有给她我的最满爱，就有如她对我的关爱一阳
我很惭愧没有好好的对她说一句， “我爱你，谢谢你”
虽然我没好好的去回报我的爱，她还是默默地爱护这我，
发脾气时，她都听我述说，
伤心时，她在一旁安慰我，
当我被别人遗忘时，她永远站在我的后面，
牵起茫然的我，带我一起走下去。。

世上就是有那么接近天使的人，
我很幸运，也很高兴，
希望，我现在发现她的爱还不算太晚。。
然而，若要我对她说 “我爱你，谢谢你”
我可说不出口。。。
因为，我竟然没发现她的爱，她的牺牲。。
惭愧到没脸当面和她说。。

所以，若我的朋友或亲戚有读到我的blog,
请替我告诉她，我爱她。。

而那位天使，就是
妈妈！张燕珠女士！我爱你，谢谢你！

the first time...

我不想承认，但是，我哭了。。。
在自己的房间，
开着自己的行李，将一件一件的东西拿出来。。
在整理自己的行李之前，我们出去买东西。。
我买了一个整套的床单，
在整理的时候，看到妈妈为我准备的床单，
我哭了，没出声，但眼泪流下来了。。
我觉得我很没用，又乱花钱了。。
手上的每一张，都是父母省吃减用才缴出来的。。
第一天，就花了RM160++
haih...

晚上，妈妈打电话来，
我接了，忍着眼泪，说了“什么事？”
妈妈问了我几句后。。我的眼泪掉了下来。。
没出声。。妈妈以为是电话line不好，就挂电话了。。
我平复了自己的心情后，
自己打电话给妈妈。。
始终不敢告诉妈妈，我花了那么多钱。。
我。。又哭了。。
妈妈没看到，以为line不好，
我说话才会断断续续。。。
其实，我是哭着。。。

不久后，我online le,
哥哥用webcam连接起来，
让我和妈妈可以看到对方。。
看到妈妈。。看到爸爸。。
虽然我眼睛有点泪。。
但还是忍了下来。。
和妈妈对话中。。
他们是多么的关心我。。
心中，有点惭愧。。。

虽然说的话不多，但却让我感觉到，
还是有人爱我的。。
因此，我觉不可以让他们失望！
照顾好自己，在这里努力读书！
希望，我能成为他们能在别人面前炫耀的孩子！

我决不放弃！

谢谢你，妈妈
谢谢你，爸爸。。

我爱你们。。
我说不出口，只好靠写字了。。
希望他们看的到。。。

我会好好在这里生活的！

Leaving..

Narh..
leaving miri?
i dun think so..
cause i nt only leave miri,i leave many memories,my friend..and a lot
i promise tat when u guys meet me,i am the better black tan u guys known!
and i gotta sure i disiplined myself

before leaving,
Lenno asked me,sad?
of course la..leave my family ler...
leave my friend ler..
leave miri de food ler..
haha..
and also..her

narh..
i sitting down along,
thinking about her again..
i wonder will she sent a single message to me?
narh...
nothing special,doesnt thinking anything,
jus think tat the sms is from the side of friends..
narh..will she sent?i am waiting..
haha..
however..the chances is LOW

lets wait and see..
she still think i am her friend?dunno ner..

SMILE~
Black Tan

dear friends,

well,i am leaving soon..
narh..
some friends ask me,
feel "bu she de a?"
yeah..
of course,
i leave everything,
my family,my place,my home,my friends,and her
haha..
but this is the path we will go over,
let go something..for out future,
this is wht a very nice teacher told me...
(hope he read it,thanks~)

friends,
well..i hope we stay in contact,
meet in msn,add me in skype..
haha..
when we meet each other,
i hope to see a better of u,
narh..there are still a lot..
still plenty of thing i wannna say..cant finish...

in short,hope u all happy ba..find me if i manage to help

SMILE~~
Black Tan

Talk through songs,Into ur heart (1)-FAMILY

before i leave,i gt plenty of things wanna say..
narh..typing cant tell everything

well..i jus wanna use songs to show my word,
easier and simpler
hope u guys enjoy it..

i divide it into parts la...
this part,i wanna give to my parent,and my family
eventhough they never know i got a blog,haha
but jus in case they saw it

(1)总在我身旁

no matter wht i do wrong,wht problem i faced,they r always beside me,
thanks

(2)我懂

for now,i know,i know i hv grown up a bit,but still plenty things to learn

SMILE~
Black Tan

i request some1 to slap me,jus in case

well..as usual,i gotta gv myself a rule b4 i go thr
i need to obey these law,no matter wht...

(1)DONT SMOKE
cause smoke doent good for health,smoke too much will make our 阳光萎缩！

(2)DONT BE TOO FAT
yeah..need to keep the thin body size..too fat not good for health

(3)DISIPLINED
eventhough we are out of parent control,i need to take care myself

(4)DONT FORGET MY FRIENDS,MY LUZHOU TEACHER,AND OTHERS
these ppl teach me plenty of things,i gotta remember wht they teach,and use it

(5)DONT BE TOO GENEROUS
haha..for this,i hv a reason,i need to use as least as money as possible,
as i living thr r quite a burden for my parent,if i be generous,it will cost more for them

(6)DONT STOP,STUDY HARD
narh..i gotta study hard,so tat i can apply for scholarship to decrease the burden of my parent

(7)DONT THINK NEGATIVE,SMILE~
haha..no matter what happen,there are positive and negative side,
why dun we think at the good side,and settle everything with a smile

(8)DONT BE HOT TEMPERED
haha..sometime,depends on ppl,i will be hottempered,i gotta change this

(9)hvnt think of it...but still gt a lot


SOME1 PLEASE SLAP ME TO WAKE ME UP IF I DONE ANYTHING WRONG....

thanks~

SMILE~
Black Tan

forget?or get used to it?

haha..
someone called me
"forget her ba,u can find a better 1"

narh,
forget,except if my brain drop into dynamo,
wash until white,
or nt i wont forget someone or something happen,
tat change my opinion,my thinking

i believe tat,
we wont forget the gal we loved b4,
we will only get used to the feeling of thinking her..
make it as normal as breathing..

however,there also exception,
my theory nt usable for playboy

Missing the feeling of "busy"

narh...looking back all the pic i got.
suddenly...feel a bit sad..
i miss the feeling of busy...
i miss the feeling stay together with my friend..
i miss the smile of my friend..
i miss....
i miss...

i told Lenno about my feel,
he told me,dun miss the thing pass,plan for the future..

narh...it seems this sentence very meaningful
however,i cant really feel the meaning of sentence...

i hope,some1 call me go to a camp,
i hope,some1 call me go out lim teh..
i hope,some1 sms me..
narh...make me busy plz..

haha...
cause when alone,
my brain will think about her..
haha..however,i clear with it,
i give up

the day toward my leaving are closer and closer..
narh,i wanna keep in touch with all my friend..
sad?yeah..a bit

SMILE~
Black Tan

N.E.W

narh..
take a deep breath,
i tell myself,
its a new day..

forget wht make us sad yesterday,
and live happily for the moment now,
forget wht make us angry,
sometime forgive also make us smile,

Dun ever try and get closer to her,
cause,she will feel frustrated,
she feels meaningless and useless,
toward my action,

for my friend,
hope u guys happy always,
find me if anything i could help,
dun forget ,
>>>>> stay in contact <<<

for strangers~=.=
if u still dunno me,
add me in msn
black_tan89@hotmail.com
or
tan si nan
in skype

for "her"
i jus wanna say,
i hope i can talk to u jus like normal,
i hope we can sms like friend,
and the last but nt the least,
lets be friend=.=

i wonder r u reading this

narh..dun ask what i writing today,
i dunno..haha,jus for fun