How worst i am..

My brain coming out with a lot of thinkings today..
Mayb because i keep blaming myself ba,
For both of the Exam..

Arg..
let say about one of my thinkings,
Tat never come out before,
Today this THOUGHT is my first time..
Its quite important for me..
As it is somthing about me..
narh..
In short..
I found tat i am a loser in friendship world..

Wht make me become a loser?
narh..i cant admit it,is my attitude....

well..for friends,we contact each other using phone,smsing or msn
however..i dun hv the passion,jus like some1 i know..
he has the passion to sms with others everyday..
while for me,i only reply,when message come..

i dun really sent "how r u today?"this type of message to others..
i wonder why...
in msn,i seldom find ppl to chat with,
i only keep talking if some1 looking for me..
narh..
suddenly feel lonely,and empty
i sure,this isnt wht i wan
but..
i wonder how can i change it..


Well,is this cause by the lazy attitude of myself?
i lazy to sms,lazy to find ppl to chat,or wht?
arg..
Or i jus scared,my sms or talk doesnt really welcomed by others..

i admit it,i eager for friendship
i wanna to hv more friends,
however..
i jus cant keep the friendship long lasting..
sometime,i will even forget to take the contact of my friend,
how can i contact with them then??????

NARH...
Thinking RUBBISH..
arg..
how worst i am..

I will do my best..

Do u ever being praised by a senior..

I do,and i love those words..even if those senior jus say out like a normal dialog,
it means a lot for me..

Gt 1 senior,he is a program manager of talent time,
He is a senior who very efficient in doing work,full with leadership,
He praised me..say i am quite efficient when working..
Even mayb he jus talk like normal dialog..
Tat sentence keep remind me,
"Black,do ur best..dun make them disappointed"

Another senior,whom r my Boss when talent time,
He taught me a lot of things..
He is a nice leader..
And i still thinking wanna be the technical crew under the leading of him,
If he dun mind..

I will work hard..
so i wont make them disappointed..

BLACK,WORK HARD

SMILE~
Black Tan
I wanna say Thank You to him..

寻找着...

虽然..和housemate约定了..
在一年内,谁又女友的就请大家吃饭..
也和自己承诺了,2-3年里..不找女友..
然而..老实说..我还是默默地寻找着..
找着一个熟悉的 背影..
找着一个熟悉的 感觉..
虽然大学里,有大约4000个人..但..
我还没遇到那个女孩..
大概是因为,我找这"她"的样本去找吧..
如果是这样,那么就算我找到了,
我也很对不起那女孩..
因为..我喜欢那女孩,只是因为那女孩很像''她''

我看,我还是干脆去做和尚算了..-.-

她,最近好吗?

SMILE~
Black Tan

Not every1 can be BLOGGER

Well..
When i start blogging..
There are few of us start blog together...
but now..left me who will update quite often..
Others not really update their blog..

Narh..
I create my blog,
jus to let all my fellow friends who cares me know wht i am thinking,wht i am doing,and how am i going on my life..
and also..let them leave some comments or thinking or opinion..
to let me improve myself..

Create a blog is easy,
but wanna maintain a blog is quite hard..
As it need the passion on it...

No offence to any1,jus some of my thinking..

I think tat's all..


SMILE~
Black Tan

Walking Alone? OF COURSE NT!

Few days ago..
I go out to eat with a gang of friends..
When walking back..
I saw of one my friend..walking alone..
very far away..
I walk slightly faster..
Jus to chase her..
I asked her..
"U like to be a alone?"
She say...
"Sometimes..but this time nt..i walk fast because i wanna go toilet.."
My face turn ---> =.=
Well..i know she hv some problem..
But i dunno wht tat problem are..
I nt gotta ask..as i am nt her listener yet..

But i hv few words for her..

:No matter how fast u walk..even though u feel tat u r alone..but u r nt...cause there are FRIENDS tat will at ur back..take care of u..If u fall down..WE,as ur friend..will run towards u..and give u a hand..let u stand up..mayb this doesnt really help in ur problem..but jus remember..no matter wht happen,WE ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR U...
DUN ASK Y..cause ..WE ARE FRIENDS..jus so simple...hope to see u manage to deal with ur problem...

SMILE~
BLACK TAN

Win jor?I still BLUR

Wht do u think with this pic?
I sent this pic to one of the competition tat held in my UNIVERSITY,
UTAR by Community Service Society..

I jus join by fun..no intention about the present..
(Cause they din say about the present also)..

In the end..
Haha..dun ask me why..cause i dunno y also..

By the way..i choose tat pic..because of the sun rise..
cause the pic is take after the SHI CHUAN earthquake and MYANMAR cyclone..

I feel tat the sun rise means tat no matter how 1 day goes..
There are always sun rise tat represent hope..
Hope those victim realize this..

Today i get the present of the competition..
A nice BLACK^^ bottle tat suit me and a towel^^

Feel thankful tat the PRESIDENT-YEW VE VIAN go to old town to buy...

Haha..need to thank her here..if nt i sure being BOOM into pieces de..
:P

RITE,VE-VIAN?

Haha..

Thanks for everything~~

SMILE~
Black Tan

HEY!WHT HAPPEN TO U GUYS TODAY!??????

Today weird..
I tot one of my house mate----MR A go back his hometown le..
When afternoon wanna go and eat..i saw him..
He doesnt looks well..
Dunno y..it doesnt show from his face..
But i feel from my heart..
Mayb i am wrong...
I hope myself r wrong..

Today i find him,phone him,trying to talk to him..
Narh..i wonder wht is happening..no chance to do so..

I worrying him..
Because he is my friend..
Mayb he face some problem..i willing to help..
Mayb he dun wan tell me..but i jus wanna support him..let him know..he is nt alone.

This is 1 case..
Another 1..
A gal..i called her..asking how she wanna settle her dinner..
As she always dun eat at the normal time,cause no ppl accompany or other
And now..her house mate all go out..then i think i need to call her..
But she din reply..i wonder she din bring her phone or wht..
When she phone me..she said..she sitting in front of her house..
feeling the breeze of the wind..

narh...every1 looks weird..
I feel quite weird..i cant help them..
narh...

Doesnt feel good?

Hey..do u agree tat boys always trying to draw attention of gals?

For my opinion,
YES for MOST of the BOYS..

However..
in KAMPAR...
I tend to stop my seed of love to born..
They are few reasons..
For example..
1.My heart still in pieces..
2.I dun hv time
3.I dun hv money
4.Not in mood
5.etc etc and etc...

These reason makes me become slow when approach gals..
Unlike my friend..
He is active in going out with gals,talking with gals,exchange number..etc

However..
Sometime,
when i looking on my friend condition..
i wonder..
should i become like tat?

There are 2 answer only,YES or NO

But weirdly,i gt 2 answer with reason..
1.Yes,i should become like tat,cause i can know more friends..
2.No,i better stay like my current condition now..so tat i wont make my love seeds to start generate..

Narh..Bluring..
But sometime it doesnt feel good when gals looking for them going out..
Arg~~i dunno wht i am writing,and doing-.-

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Black Tan

mature?

In UTAR,i discovered smtg.

I have some senior friends..
Some of them are same age with me,some even born in 1990!
However..they looks so matured..unlike me..
Even though some of them who studying degree now are younger than me
I tend to call them,"hey,sis"
Just because of their matured looking..
Make me feel like i am childish sometime..

Narh..when can i be matured?haiz..still long way to go..


Smile~
Black Tan

吝啬？节俭？

有个朋友．
她说我像他的朋友．．．
说话．．态度．．等等都有点相像．．
但，有个最大的差别的就是．．
我比较吝啬．．

我承认．．我是很吝啬．．
那是因为我要在用最少的钱完成我的学业．．
我不想让我父母如此的辛苦．．
我没有个高收入的父亲．．
我没有好的背景．．

有些人说．．
因为和我在一起．．
人也变得吝啬起来了．．
可能吧．．
可能我要把我自己吝啬的想法
放在我的心里．．
而不是和朋友说＂这个不划算，那个比较好＂

大概吧．．　我吝啬就好．．
别害别人也吝啬．．

我也该改改我这个坏习惯了．．

对不起．．我让你们变的吝啬了．．

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Black Tan

Kampar,i never regret to choose this place

when i introduce to my friends at kampar..
all ppl will hv the same face,the same reaction,the same question..
when they heard i am from sarawak..
their face will looks very shock,then will ask the same question,
why form sarawak some here to study ler?

haha..
explain for many time the same answer to different ppl..
however..
i like this place..
cause no entertainment..
ntg to do,ntg to play..
so most time will at home..looking at slide show by lecturer..

for now..
dunno wht happen...
after i reach kampar..
my phone become more and more silent...
the number of sms decrease..
at here..i also dun sms other ppl..
dunno why..even gals also dun really interested with them...
i wonder i become gay or nt..haha..jkjk...
i still like gals de..

in my house..
now gt 9 ppl,
3 of them gt gf,1 gt gal-friend living next door,
1 gt target already,2 ppl i dunno,
while for my roommate,everyday gt sms,dunno to who..

looking on them..
i dun feel really envy them cause they are in relationship or gt gf like tat..
haha
mayb i start to learn to be a SAMI..
my heart mayb still on pieces,
or mayb..i am waiting for some1..

dunno..haha..
jus wait..
wait..
and wait..

see which gal so unlucky lo..make me fall in love,

haha..

back to the point-.-
kampar..is a nice place to study..
hope it wont change its impression tat leave on my mind..

dun ask wht is the point i writing this..cause i dunno

SMILE~
Black Tan

Time passed..fast or slow?

i jus realise tat today is 1st of june..
it seems tat i had stay here for 13 days le..almost 2 week le..
i still have 13 week to study here...2 week for exam..
narh..
i cant say time passed very fast..cause now jus begining..
but nt slow too..cause it doesnt wait for us..
narh..
i hope..i can achieve wht i wan..

among our house mate..
we made a contract..
among all of us..who hv a gf first..need to belanja all of us to go eat..
however..
thinking about tat..
i hv made a small promise for myself..
i think i wont in the relationship for years ba..
at least,this year wont..
nt becoz i still like her..
but becoz i gotta study hard..
hope this will help me..

however,
normal ppl like me,
i think i am safe from tat kind of relation..
cause,
i am nt rich,nt handsome,nt tall..
and i lazy to sms gals everyday..
haha..

hope i can concentrate on my study..

SMILE~
Black Tan