lucky~

few day ago,
a little gal using msn chatting with me,
in her personal message,
she say"left XX days nia,he will leave miri"with many icons of crying..

i saw it,
i feel better,at least,
she wont feel anything when i leave,
nt even feel wanna sent a single message to me..

at least,this makes everything better..
thanks for everything..

however,the little gal doesnt mean me..

SMILE~
Black Tan

wat's wrong with me,and myself

sometime,sitting down alone,
i will think about my relationship,
and will ask myself..
wht wrong with me and myself?
my personaliti?my attitude?
narh...i cant understand..
can some1 tell me wht's wrong with me?

its hard to find some1 who can talk directly already..

hahaz..

BLACK TAN

gv up loooo

last time,a gal rejected my heart,
it take me 2 years to recover,
to pick up the pieces of my heart...
and to stick it up..
and fix it back..

this time,how long will it take?

narh..however,she did a correct decision...
haha..

dun worry..
i wont do anything anymore..
as u wish to be like tat..
i need to respect u...

if u dun mind,sms me after u saw this message..
i still gt few question wanna ask u..

the last thing i wanna hope from u is,
be friends..tat's all..

i am late..

i am late..
she hv another guy in her heart already..
a better guy..
i ask who is he,
she dun wanna tell me,
so i dun ask about it any further..
even though a bit disappointed,but i need to respect her..
i hope the guy she like can make her happy...
i wonder..when can i see her smile..
narh,i gotta leave Miri,
leave my hometown,
leave my family,
leave my gangz,
leave my memories,
and..
leave her..

nvm...
i believe she can live happily.
i think..we still able to meet each other..

she going other place to study..
hope she can get a good result..
hope when she ended her course,
she still remember me
and will find me..
sms me when bored..
and a lot...

good luck and take care when u go thr study..
i wonder r u reading..haha..

hope..she wont forget me..

SMILE~
Black Tan

去吧!我能的!

决定了一个日期,
开始准备了,
到了那天,
去找她,告诉她,
东西拿给她,
收,还是丢掉,
权利在于她,
希望,我说的时候,
她别调头就走,
至少,让我说完,
至少,不要那么快,就给我答案,
希望,我能忍住心被撕裂的痛,
希望,她能不介意,做会朋友,
有困难时,找找我,
很无聊时,找找我,
很想发泄时,找找我,
我不介意,做她零时的出气桶,
只要,她记得我就可以了..
结果如何,在当天就会懂了..

我能的..

好怪的方程式-.-

离开美里之前,写一写blog吧..
刚刚记得一些东西,要立刻写,才不会忘记..

我一个朋友我了我一句"你几时喜欢她?"
他又问了一句"你几时开始发觉你喜欢她了?"

这两句问题,一直徘徊在我脑海中,
我觉得是同一个问题,答案应该是一样的..
我朋友告诉我,

(1)"你几时喜欢她?"
这问题是说,我几时开始对她有莫名的关心,对于她的一举一动都非常主意..
想了一下,自己也有了答案..

(2)"你几时开始发觉你喜欢她了?"
而这题目是问我几时开始懂,自己已经喜欢上她了..
并承认自己喜欢上她了..
想了一下,也有了答案..

而当 (2) - (1) 的时间,就是我鉴定我是否爱上她的时间

那么,我鉴定的时间,还真有点长呢..
若短暂一点,可能就会早点告诉她吧..
还是很感谢这位朋友啦..

SMILE~
BLACK TAN

离开了,放手了,但还喜欢着

11th,我离开了美里..

我已经开始准备离开的心,
亦准备了应该放手的决心,
放手,
代表我不在烦她,
代表我祝福她,

希望她找到一个爱她,疼爱她的男朋友,
希望她快快乐乐,
希望她健康,
希望她成绩进步,
希望她..还记得我..

虽然放手了,但还喜欢着的..
究竟几时我才真正放弃呢?
心凉凉,酸酸的感觉真不好受..

希望以后,她面对困难的时候,
会想起我吧..
我没资格成为她心中的人,
那么就去成为在她身边默默无闻守护她的人吧..

希望她快乐..

SMILE~
BLACK TAN

i wish..

well..i have a nice friend..she cant really read chinese word..
so i promise her tat i will write the next blog with english..
haha..well..as i promise it,i will do it,
haha..This little girl will know i am writing about her,rite?
mayb she wanna laugh my broken english also..haha-.-
but never mind la..she happy then ok le..haha

haha..well,
back to the point..
among friends,
i trust them,
i believe tat trust is somekind a gift to someone..
as we trust a ppl,we gv them this gift..
to keep if or spoil it,its up to them..

i am a greedy ppl..
haha...honestly. :P
i wish my friend can gv me this special gift,
i dun mind to be my friends' listener,
gving some of my opinions and cheer up them..
mayb sometime i cant help,
but please do find me if i can help,,
haha..

sometime,i be a listener,
as promised,
i dun telling any1..
cause i dun wanna spoil the trust tat my friend gv me as a gift..
mayb i am hving a bad memories too..
sometime my friend told me some secret i will forgot de..

but i really dunno,
dunno how to be a better listener,
dunno how to let ppl believe me..
narh...i bet only my close friend will know..

i also hope ppl can trust me,
trust tat i will accept ur opinion..
i dun think tat a am tat kind of ppl tat dun hear wht ppl say,
haha..so please do tell me if i do smtg wrong,directly..
its a lot better than being backstabbed..

narh..
i wanna belp..
do u trust me?

SMILE~
BLACK TAN

述说与聆听

述说,是减压的好方法.
将您心中的不满,的秘密,面对困难..
一一说出来..
发泄一下..
会让自己轻松点..

然而
世界没那么好的事情..
要述说,需要一个聆听的人,
聆听的人很重要,
他必须是个守口如瓶的家伙,
不会将告诉他的东西说出来,
还要会给予宝贵的意见,
还要会安抚述说者的心情,

因此,要找一个好的聆听者,真的很难..
对吗?

SMILE~
BLACK TAN