诚实与勇敢的代价..

想一想..
(乱乱想的)
现在的痛..
失去一个朋友的痛..
都是当初
诚实与勇敢的代价..

现在..有点后悔..
但是后悔也没用..
哈哈...

但是..
若当初不说..
我现在也在后悔...

救命啊..
麻烦阿...

现在最重要的是拯救友情..
但是若我单方面的话..
有点难度呢..
真不知道女孩在想什么-.-

narh...
GALS ARE JUS SO COMPLICATED

回到美里最好的回忆...

回到美里..
虽然没想像中开心
但也错的回忆..
哈哈...

回到来。。。
当然少不了跟朋友喝茶啦。。
看到他们。。好开心。。
大家都过得不错。。
哈哈。。。

还有一个。。
每天载我。。
感到有点惭愧。。
因为我transport有问题。。
只能拜托他。。

回到美里。。
很高兴能和这位朋友见面。。
有时他会让我担心。。
但是我相信他的决定。。
我支持他！

回到美里另一个美好的回忆。。
就是。。
和一个可爱的女孩见面。。
认识她的过程虽然很离奇。。
也很好笑。。
但是能够见到她。。
也很高兴。。
但是很遗憾的是。。

我没和她拍照留念！！
伤心T。T

希望回去之前。。
还有机会吧。。。
希望她不介意0-0
哈哈。。。

回到美里...

这一次回到美里..
感觉没想像中的那么高兴..
因为错过了很多美好的节目..

1.绿洲远游会
2.绿洲的10周年文娱晚会

相信也没机会参加

1.绿洲毕业营
2.绿洲少年营
3.其他营会...

本来以为回来看到朋友们..
会回想起以前美好的回忆...
但是看到有些朋友..
变了...

只能说..

人事已非...

感觉上..
朋友们都疏远了..
发现开始有点代沟了..

终于明白..
为什么每年那么多人从一间学校毕业..
但是回母校的人屈指可数..

阿..
果然人,害怕改变...
我...也是..

我..在做什么?

明明自己已经告诉自己..
别去找她..

但是,
想到..没朋友做..
真的很难受..

我没恶意阿..

她大概还是看到我像看到鬼一样吧...

阿....
乱阿..
我在做什么??

没事找事做...
没事找事烦..

我可以..以朋友去称呼她吗?
对不起..

一些话(Get it from Internet)

小心讀每一個，再用一兩秒想一想

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

narh...
I think twice when reading it..
even though know.. and realise smtg..
i smiled..
cause i happy it happen b4..even though..rejected..

Thanks,
this is the word i would like to say it out to u sincerely...
Be friends?please..

sorry

haha...
i wanna say sorry to all of my blogging friend..
i cant gv any comment cause this 2 week i hving my test..
no time ha a look on ur blog..
sorry sorry sorry...

well..after today i think i busy also la..
cause some important stuff..
hahah..
however..
i will try to look for time to have a look on every1 blog de..
and leave some comments too..
haha..

sorry anyways

Back Home..

Narh..few days din update my blog dy...
hhmmmm...

well..
I din update cause this week is a Exam week mar..
haha..
This Saturday is the last paper..
Math..
final paper..

HOPE I CAN DO IT WELL

Well..
Before i go back..
I think a lot...
The closer the time back home time..
My heart ,my thinking become more messy..

Narh...
Dun ask me y..
I Scared plenty of things...narh...

Black..
Accept it...

My Name's meaning

What Tansinan Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

我,不重要

看一看她的照片..
看到她的微笑..

发现到,也了解到..
没有我的世界,
她能活到更快乐..

心,
放,是放了..
但是..心怎么样,都会时不时看一看她的照片..

现在,
还是没联络..
大概是我没胆量..没主动去联络她..
或是她,在避开我..

但是无论如何..
高兴就好..
高兴..
就好..

我也活得很高兴啊..

我,不重要..

哈哈...

i am a lucky guy

My sadness will nt stay with me for too long,
When i am sad,
I sat down..
I din realize tat there are plenty of friends at the back..

When i look at the back..
I saw those friends..
Coming,and comfort me..

Haha..

Thanks a lot,friendS..
Thanks...
Every1 of u..

Because of all of u,
I feel nice..
I OK already!

Dunno why,i jus feel nice..
I am a lucky guy..

一年后..

这篇文章本来是想要用英文打的..
但是..还是觉得用华文可以将我的心情..
表达到最多...

我,Ben,Bong,
3 个人..踏脚踏车回家..
自己来个小型奥运会--脚踏车比赛..

回到家里..
3 个人上气不接下气..
走到路边坐下来休息..
谈谈天..
谈到一年后的事情..
想到..到时候..我们第三层的朋友..一一离开了..
Ah bong 下kl
Calvin A.K.A Kai Mun 搬家..
剩下我跟 benben 闷到半死..

很快呢..
多两下,环境又改变了..
和他们在一起..我很高兴..
来到UTAR,很高兴和他们相遇..
遇到他们,是我最好的回忆..

天天搞笑..
一起玩CS..
一起炸人..
一起对Bong作大人做的事!!哈哈..

分开,虽然还有可能再见面..
但是,相信关系可能没像现在酱亲密吧..
真不想分开呢..
他们是我在UTAR 的精神依靠阿..

但是我不能那么自私..对吗?
加油吧大家!希望当我们见面时,我们还能无所不谈..

I need a hug...

Today morning...
I went to school,to see my coursework mark for math..
Even though i know the marks is bad..but i need to face it..

sad..
i din say it out..but i feel sad..
dissappointed with myself..
wasting my parent's money..
i dunnno how to face my parent..
i get 12% over 40..
To get a GPA of 1,
i need to achieve 40 %
I already gave up with GPA 2,
cause i never achieve it..

To get 40%
i gotta get 28% more..from the final..

i duno i manage to get it or nt.
my heart feel bad..
I need a hug..tat manage to let me rely on..
for tat second..
narh..
I am jus a jerk who wasting my parent's money..

Hope this test..can go smooth as i wish..

If nt..
i gotta..
look for another way...

G.I.R.L.S

Forget about my pass~

Now at Kampar..
There are plenty of gals in Kampar...

Utar has a lot of pretty gals..
However,i am nt interested..

These few day,
Sitting down alone,
Thinking matter about gals,
I think,in Kampar,
Other than those gals i know,
I only will put extra Focus on 3 gals,

1st one is because of her cute and nice attitude,however,she is having degree now..

2nd one is because of her type like a little sister for me..haha..i would like to take care her,if som1 bully her..and if she requested..haha..however,he is some1 girlfriend in law..haha

3rd one is because feeling..she is a study type gal(Assume tat she is),but i like to chat with her..dunno why..every time i online,i will search for her name first..hahaz..

haha...I dun think i write clearly who is the gals i mentioned..
but they are the 3 girls i will look at..haha..they are nt very pretty,but nice looking..haha

However,i nt gotta hv a girlfriend so fast yet...cause i still NOOB in love matter..

WHO CAN TEACH ME?hhaa..

Narh,jus like wht i said before
Gals r jus complicated...

Today~

well..today is the starting of the exam..

The test for today is ENGLISH!!

hmm...i quite worry about it..
cause i am using BROKEN ENGLISH..
UTAR doesnt accept this type of FOREIGN English..

haha...

STARTING of EXAM = STARTING of HOLIDAY!! = GOING back HOMETOWN!!

MIRI! I MISS YA!!
haha...

GOOD LUCK FOR MYSELF!

AND FOR ALL MY FRIEND TO HVING EXAM TODAY!!!

Girls wan guys to be brave?

hmm...
From the cases tat happened around me..
it shows tat..
Gals prefer guys to say I LOVE U face to face..

However,
There are guys tat dunno this fact..
They say I LOVE U using IM,MSN,SMS EXCEPT face to face..

Actually,Saying this 3 words mayb simple for some guys...
For ppl who know the Value to this 3 word,
READING this 3 words out is jus like killing themselves..

AND FOR ME,READING IT OUT IS JUS LIKE DOING MATH!!

This 3 word,
LOOKS SIMPLE,
but it doesnt mean simple...

Telling this 3 word,
R jus like Gambling..
50-50..
is Either u success or u nt..
IF success,then good lar..
IF nt,mayb cant even be friends..

Gal wan guys to TELL this 3 word face to face..
No matter they gt feel with the guy or nt..

But it MAYB become a hard task for guys,rite?

hmm..dun ask wht i am writing,
jus type anything with my feeling..
NO OFFENCE..

By the way,wht am i writing?-.-

BROKEN ENGLISH...

Your Life Path Number is 9

Your purpose in life is to make the world better You are very socially conscious and a total idealist. You think there are many things wrong with the world, and you want to fix them. You have a big idea of how to world could be, and you'll sacrifice almost anything to work towards this dream. In love, you can easily see the beauty in someone else. And you never cling too tightly. You are capable of great love, but it's hard for you to focus your love on one person or relationship. You have a lot of outward focus, and you tend to blame the world for your failures. You are often disappointed by the realities of life - it's hard for you to accept the shortcomings of the world.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

This is my path number...Some quite accurate..some are nt..
For example the matter of love..hahahz..
Any others?i DUNNO..U discover from me for me lo..
haha...
SOMETIME FRIENDS AROUND CAN HV A CLEARER VIEW ON ME

haha...GV UR COMMENT BA!~~

最高兴的一天..

今天大概是我来到kampar
最最最最最最高兴得一天了...
因为发现了一个东西..
哈哈...


^^

Tagged by Yun Xin

1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

2. Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
Yes

2 ) Describe urself in one word.
Funny

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
the one who i love..sry for the someone who really loves me..tell me if u does,haha

4) Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?
no,i dare to tell..

5 ) Does it feel good to love?
yeah

6 ) What's the best thing to do with the one you love?
take care her,the best thing to do with will be every moment

7) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??
Well,its ur decision to believe or nt for wht i said,dun regret with wht u choose,GOOD LUCK

8 ) Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
Once,9 ) What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?
they jus envy wht is better on others,i jealous also...

10 ) What would yo say to playboys/playgirls?
Playboys-DUN EVER HEART MY FRIEND OR ANY GALS..
Playgirls-WELL,DUN TRY TO FOOL WITH ME AND TAKE CARE URSELF,PLEASE

[[ * PART 2 * ]]

1 ) Best place to cry?
Seashore

2) Who do you love the most?
My family,and the gal i love now,

3 ) Tell us about ur dream last night?

I make my friends happy

4) Ever hated someone so bad?
hmm,no so serious la..but i need few days for me to forgive tat fellow,if the case is nt so serious

5 )The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
U r my BEST friend,by S~Y~H~

The last person..
-you had a beer with?

the day before coming kampar,with lenno,jenny,len,xiao yin,wendy,Loh-ia

-you went to the movies with?
hmm,last time with TD friends----THE DARK KNIGHT

-you talked on the cell phone with?
Shun yii,Annie,Chua..a lot

-you hugged?
my pillow,and all my friend b4 i Come Kampar

-you yelled at?
SEA

In the last week have you..
~Kissed someone?
No

~Danced crazy?
no

Think of the last time u were angry, why were u angry?
few days ago,feel insulted

If you could do anything OR wish anything, wad would it be?
I would wish for best for my family and ALL my friend,and....
HER

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
Japan

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
Of course,with those friend tat wont angry..

Are you old fashioned?
yea!

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
u make me frustrated

What thing would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?

love?hahazz..

5 Facts About Me:
Emotional,
playful,
like to smile to every1
loser on love
NT CONCENTRATE IN STUDIES

5 Things that Scares Me:
BETRAYER
MATH
out of money
sleepy worm
lost a friend

7 Songs Playing in My Head Lately:
kiss from a rose by seal
Beethoven Virus
存在 by 5566
守候 by 5566
蝴蝶飞 by 小虎队
红蜻蜓 by 小虎队
仨人
快乐崇拜

7 Words/Things I Always Use:
walao eh~
oi seh~
Narh~
F~~~~~~ly (dun wanna say the F word)
APU!!!
Geez...

a bit
RUDE WORDS*******

Tag a...
cincai la..who feel wanna tagged by me then write ba

等

一个女孩, 一个朋友的妹妹..
给我很好的印象...
灿烂的笑容..
很容易亲近..
很喜欢开她的玩笑..

有一天..
因为某些原因..
让我对她的印象跌份..

我会原谅她..
但是..不是现在..
几天后,如果顺利的话..
应该没问题..哈哈...

等吧..快不快就要看她的造化了..哈哈
若她不介意..那么就算了吧..

我在等着,

莫名的火

hmm...
没想到呢。。
一向来觉得自己很玩得起。。
也会因为陌生人的一句话觉得不舒服呢。。
唉。。自己的忍耐性还要加强呢。。
但很遗憾。。
那位“朋友”。。我害怕。。
我不会把你称为朋友了。。
以后。。不对你开玩笑。。
可能你觉得是小事。。
但是我短期之内。。
没有原谅你的想法。。
算了，反正可能你没想过要我的原谅吧。。
因为你根本不了解你做错了什么。。

烧阿！！

加油，陈思男！再距续 锻炼你的耐心吧。。

昨晚。。

听着一首歌..心跳变的好快..
不是因为高兴...而是..酸酸的感觉..
虽然不觉得舒服..但是却不愿停止..
因为..我想找出..我心酸酸的原因,以及..为了谁...

阿。。好乱。。
（是指我的心里和脑袋里的思路。。不是指我的房间。。）

我相信，但无奈。

因为某些东西。。让我深深地回忆起一个朋友离开美里之前的一句话

“若不把你那态度改一改，你很难追到你心爱的女孩。。”
“可能你们相爱，但却因为你的态度而结束。。”

我。。的态度真的那么差吗？hmmm...
我了解他在说什么，但是。。始终改不了。。

关于这件事中所指的态度。。今天还没什么mood写。。。
该天吧~

哈哈。。。

无题~~

今天下午,我说了一句.
"我8月写了15篇文章"

有个家伙..
就很不服气地叫我算一算从5月到现在我写了多少篇文章..
*到现在,我还不了解,那比赛的目的...

但是...
结果还是我赢了!
哈哈...

果然呢..
时间过得很快..
一点一点地,我写了101 个文章..

一个月几次的有感而发..
没想到呢..哈哈..我可以那么有恒心...

对了...
我不会告诉你们..
那个家伙就是义程!!

你们永远都不可能知道!!哇哈哈哈...

距离是问题吗?

读完中学后，大家就开始为自己的前途寻找一条路
然而。。我身边的朋友，也在这时候面对困难。。

原因很简单。。因为女朋友 。。
双方面都担心距离上的问题。。

从Sarawak到西马。。
隔着一片海。。
这种距离不小。。

我很高兴，那天。。
她的一封简讯。。拒绝了我。。
让我不比担心类似的问题。。
谢谢你。。虽然我不知道你是否有留意我的部落格。。

距离，怎么样算远，怎么样算近呢？
因人而异吧。。

时间+距离 =？？？？

若距离短，但分开时间长，又怎么办呢？

这就在考验着那对情侣。。
人，会担心，是因为某些东西让他/她失去了自信心。。
或许自信心是有，但不足以歼灭那在她心中发芽的担心吧。。

若一对情侣没经过风风雨雨。。
是不会对 对方产生那种独一无二的信赖地。。

距离，是不是个问题，是在于对方给自己的自信心。。

但是，我很抱歉的说，
我不相信远距离爱情。。
因为我对自己没那么自信。。

算了，反正也没人要和我远距离爱情。。哈哈。。。
我。。。。。。。还在寻找着呢。。。
有人找着我吗？哈哈。。。