隐瞒..

我很少秘密,
至少,我自己觉得很少..

我不隐瞒什么,
但,对有些话题,如 "你喜欢谁?"
我就无可丰告..
因为,说出来了,后果便不堪设想..
会伤及我喜欢的那个女孩..

只有最相信的朋友才会懂..
目前,懂我喜欢谁的,屈指可数..
哈哈哈...都是我100%相信的"兄弟姐妹"

我很少对某件事情问的很仔细,
大概懂来龙去脉就可以了,
对于哪个人,为什么,等等,
这些,我相信,若那个人相信我,要告诉我,他会告诉我的,
不用我去咄咄相问..
因为,每个人都有不能告诉的事情,
毕竟,每个人都有隐私权嘛~
哈哈哈...

了解我的人很少..
因为..我没什么好了解的..哈哈哈...


我很矛盾,
我不喜欢隐瞒..
但相信我的人所告诉我的秘密,
我却可以守口如瓶..
打死我都不说..
只因为这是他们相信我的礼物..
我怎么可以辜负他们呢？
哈哈．．

对吗？相信我的朋友们．．

ＳＭＩＬＥ～
ＢＬＡＣＫ　ＴＡＮ

To the pass,to the future..

PASS..
every thing we think about the pass is only some memories left in our brain
we miss those good and happy condition in the pass..
we went through it,we miss it..
we miss the feeling hving a gang working together..

but no matter how..it is only a memories..

i told one of my friend who keep missing about the pass to looking forward to the future..
Yeah..
indeed,those nice thing tat we went through,we miss it..
but now..
it doesnt really useful to miss it..
keep it as a memories..and create a new better memories now..
when my friend are sad,i told them..
"live for a better tomorrow.."

no1 know wht will happen tomorrow..
mayb tomorrow then i cant see the sunlight,
mayb tomorrow then i pass away,and bla bla bla..

wht for we live in sorrow and sadness for today?
appreciate wht we hv today,
we born to live in hapiness,
nt in anger and sadness..

looking forward..

it is a unpredictable scene..
but..we will walk through it..
As we will walk through it,
why dun we make it as a nice memories?
make everything as a happy thing, think positive in every condition..
hahaz..

Narh..i think many of ppl wont understand wht i wrote..
hahaz..because of my broken english and my weird thinking..

but no matter wht..
i hope every1 live in happiness..
if u laugh becoz of my broken english,
its ok also..
hahaz...

SMILE~
Black Tan

A type of love...

A nice female friend of mine..*(NT GF)

one day..
she said she feel lonely..
she is sad..

i feel how she feel..
and know tat..she is crying silently eventhough we talk to each other using sms..
i doesnt feel good..
cause a friend of mine is crying,is sad..

she miss the pass,
miss her friends,
miss everything..
everything tat left in her memories..
everything when she studying..

i cant do much..
i can only cheer her up..
hope she isnt sad anymore..
wht can i do..?
i asked myself..
now..
i can only accompany her..
make sure she isnt sad..she isnt feel lonely..
i hope..i can help..
make her smiles..and happy like before..
but unfortunately,
we cant see each other..
when she type "haha"in sms and sent to me,
i hope tat she is really smiling or laughing..

as a friend..i can only make others happy
accompany them..
i bet this is what they called as "love for a friend"

hope she is smiling now..

and..
i hope every1 is happy now..
i hope,i hope..

are u happy?

SMILE~
BLACK TAN

独立..

毕业后,
不可能停下脚步,
会继续前进,
去学更多,更新的东西..

可能,要离开家人,朋友,还有..心中的爱人..
到一个,没人认识,没人在乎,没人关心的陌生地方,
开始自己的生活..走自己的路..

若,到了个新的地方,
没有了家人的束缚,
我又能不能不学坏?
我有如此坚定的意志吗?
我又能不能坚持独自在那里独自生活呢?

到了新的地方,
意味着,我,长大了,
是时候,该独立了,
依赖的手,该放开了,
该自己靠自己站起来了..
亦也意味着,
我已经,一半处于社会了..
社会中,种种的诱惑..
我,是否有能力挣脱诱惑的魔掌?
我,该独立了..

到了新的环境,
认识了新的朋友..
那时候,又有多少个朋友是可以信任的呢?
还有...
对她的爱..
越来越远了..
我..撑的下去吗?
我..会爱她多旧?
我不会说"永远"
因为,永远,这承诺..太远了..
这世界..没有永远..
但..至少..现在..我的心是在她身上的..
忘了她,也要时间啊...


该独立了呢...
哈哈...

SMILE~
Black Tan

是坚强？还是呈强？

很常．．我会用心来看朋友．．
有些．．口头上说＂没事，没什么，不在乎．．等等＂
心中都懂，
他们在呈强，不想给人看到脆弱的一面，
但，他们不懂，对有些关心自己的朋友，
用肛门想就会动自己的想法．．
以为可以瞒的过别人．．

我看得出身边的有些朋友有心事．．
但，有时，询问不是最好的关心方法．．
我相信，当他们要告诉我是，
他们会找我的．．不用我去问～

在美中ORIENTATION最后一天，
看到一位朋友，虽然不是很熟，
但，看到她的脸．．
我就懂，她虽然嘴巴在笑．．但．．
不是笑的很称心．．
上去关心了她．．
她透露了一些情感．．
至少，我的感觉是对的，
虽然她不愿意告诉我为什么，
但我希望她，别伤心．．
别忘了，你，还有朋友！
ＳＭＩＬＥ～

希望大家高高兴兴的！

心,要说的话,但..她听不到..

一个人,守护两颗心,一个是自己的,一个是爱人的...我却只守护一颗,那就是她的心...我自己的...已经毁了

一直告诉自己"已经没机会了,忘了她吧"但看见一些男子围绕着她...心里总会有点不舒服...到底是为什么呢?

是我...在她被后...看着她幸福的背影...在我快要离开时...至少...她是幸福的...

这几天..写了一些奇怪的东西..
自己..写出来的..
专属自己的心里话..
专属自己想对她说的话..
想对她说...
她可能看着我的BLOG,但,她懂我在说着她吗?

如果..看到别人抄袭..就..诅咒那个人!
请勿抄袭!

叹气..

叹气...叹气...又叹气...
叹气叹到差不多没气了..
没办法呢..
以为一再对自己说,
"你要离开了..没必要在对她保存任何爱意"
就不会那么难受..
死Lenno又泼我冷水..说我不可能忘记她,至少,缺点现在不会..
NARh..(又叹气了..)果然呢..
果然Lenno说的没错..
越是口头上说"我不在乎"心中越是在乎呢..
在过不久..我就要离开了..
到别处去读书..
也一定要放弃她呢..
离开之前,一定,一定,一定要对她说..
说的容易,我该去那里,挖掘这份勇气呢?
我..是时候..放开了..

离开后,她还会想起我吗?
narh..别妄想了..

心中..感到缺氧了..
她真的对我..那么重要吗?

Narh...Gals R Jus Too Complicated

Narh...Gals R Jus Too Complicated=.=

haha..this is the first blog in english i written in this blog..
haha..

by the way,i need to apologise with the grammartical mistake
cause my english is broken english..
haha..

but the purpose i written in english is to let every1 read
hahaz...
i hope some1 (*if can,i hope every1)can tell me or discuz with me
leave ur comments or ur opinion for me lar..
hahazz.lets discuz lo~

well..
becoz of somthing happen days ago..
i jus realise..
gals r jus too complicated..
narh...
a lot of "why","why"and "why" coming out from my brain..
hahaz..
but,in their point of view,mayb man r complicated for them also..
hahaz..

for example,
whts wrong for a gal to receive a present?
jus a simple present tat boys buy for them
*NO OTHER MEANING!
it doesnt mean tat the boys is chasing on her,rite?*i hope gals r nt thinkin like this
hahaz..
for this,i am confused..
its a simple gift,for friendship..
but how com this also reject-.-

i tot,if a boy like a gal,he will gv the present with surprice and say smtg like "i love u"?

hahaz...Gals R Jus Too Complicated

condition 2

hahaz..
this mayb serious for gals,
hahaz..
but i cant understand,
this condition happends on me few years ago..

when a boy,finally gt the courage,go and tell the gals he like how he feel
haha,actually,for my opinion,its ok to reject,
but..i dunno why the gals need ignore the boys,
dun talk to him
dun look at him
dun reply sms to him
even dun walk on the same pathway with him
dun near him
narh..
being rejected is very painful le,
cant even be friends..
arg
painful lor..
haha..
but now i successfully becom her friend back le~
haha...^^

but who can tell me why?i still nt understand ler~
haha..Gals R Jus Too Complicated

haha..
hope every1 leave ur opinion and comments here..
DUN TALK ABOUT MY GRAMMAR AND VOCAB!(*pleaseT.T)
haha..

well,i face these condition b4,haha
i written here,
if the gal i memtioned saw it,
i say sorry lo..
but i dun really understand@@

SMILE~
BLACK TAN

oh ya
*ps,gals dun angry when u see this blog..wakakaka

sorry

怎么了

2007年1月5日..
今天..我..真不像我

不笑..
做什么都没劲..
我怎么了?

随便吧..大概..过几天,就好了..

过几天,就好了.......
过几天,就好了.......

我也..
大概懂原因了..

你懂我吗?

我有很多层面~

我可以很好玩..
玩起来..很颠..很狂..
对我自己来说,还算玩的起..
我大多数处于这种状态...

哈哈..

我认真的时候..
会...沉默不语..在这时候来kacau 我的人..
会遭殃-.-(*摆脱..难得我认真ler..你来和我乱?哈哈哈)
认真的时候..很容易就看得出..因为多话的我沉默寡言了..

-.-

我可以很随便,
也可以很挑剔..

这我在上一个文章已经写了...

我可以很BROTHER~
哈哈哈...
我可以对朋友做任何事情..
只要在我能力范围内的事情,我都愿意提他们去做..
就算他们利用我,只要在能理解并不犯规的情况下,我都还可以不介意..
哈哈..曾经,有个很关照我的朋友,他就像我个哥,警告我说,这是很笨的行为,
但..这是我对我朋友用心的证明!
他们只能骗我一次!
欺骗我了,我对他们的信心破灭了,朋友,也做不下去了..(附带一句,"情况视人,事而定")

我..可以很记仇
视个人而定..对朋友如ah ter,bing,zjen thak,meng meng,yik cheng,等等..我可以接受..
若无端端被骂..我会很烧!
但,了解我的朋友们,肯定不会无端端骂我的..
像在前几年,有个朋友背叛我..
到现在,到未来..我都会记得!
他!永远不是我的朋友!

*哈哈哈..这里我特别声明..所有情况视人,事而定..
不过,在记仇之前,要看一看我会不会心软..
所以..女性..略胜一筹..哈哈哈...(虽然我不想说,但这是事实..但我不是绝对对女生心软!)

还有很多很多..
暂时想不到..
也懒惰打了..
哈哈哈..
认识我多一点,就懂我了..

SMILE~

BLACK TAN

2~0~0~8~

2008 年..
新的一年..

在这新的一年..
发生的第一件事情..
就是和我身边..陪伴我哭和笑..跟我并肩作战..陪我走过风风雨雨..默默给我支持的朋友..
心中难免有点不舍得..
很难在找到一群用心来面对朋友的一群兄弟
但.."有分才有合"=.=..
(*用了感觉怪怪的)
现在分开..以后相遇的时候..才会珍惜..对吗?

所以..在这..
我祝大家.

身体健康
万事如意
前程似锦

HAPPY always..
Take care..

国泰民安
风调雨顺
繁荣昌盛

-.-

哈哈..就是酱咯!

希望大家永远记得我...
我不在你的脑袋中占位的..
黑黑的一个小点就可以了...

SMILE~
BLACK TAN

我发现...

我发现..
我可以很随便,也可以很挑剔..
比如说..去买衣服是..
没什么mood的时候..我可以很随便..只要衣服是男装,就可以了..
如果兴致勃勃..(大概是因为是别人还钱)我就很挑剔..
我会跑了整天..一件衣服都买不到...因为..我在寻找一件我觉得特别的衣服..
最好是全天下只有我有的衣服..哈哈哈哈...

我喜欢"特别"
因为我爱抢风头..哈哈哈..

我亦也希望..
我是身边朋友眼中特别的朋友..

我很怪吧．．这就是我！哈哈哈．．

SMILE~
BLACKＴＡＮ