listen,think,talk,advice...decide?no!

listen,think, talk ,advice but nt decide.

this is my policy.

i listen to friends.

i will use this rule.

i listen to wht they talk.

analyse their problem,

talk wht i think,

advice wht i think is right.

in the end,the conclusion should make by themselves.

i shouldnt interfere wht they decide,

and i shouldnt help them decide..

cause they are the one going to get the result.

advice is only an advice

it may influence the decision

but this isnt the one make the decision..

the particular person will think and decide wht is correct and wrong,

and wht is the correct path way to walk..

i dunno my policy is right or wrong.

tell me if i am wrong.

for me, this is quite a useful and correct rule.

lion dance competiton..

sorry guys..

i tot the lion dance is in the morning or evening..

however,

it seems the lion dance is at nite..

i think i cant go and support u all.

gambatek,..

u guys can do it!!

last day.

this is the last day for 2009

here comes the first day of 2010

i nt really remember wht i have done in 2009.

i nt really plan wht to do in 2010..

this is the last day..

a lot ppl will celebrate,

says

"heres goes 2009.."

for me,this last day doesnt have much meaning to me..

for me,

things happen this few day is more significant to me..

i heard a lot,say a lot,think a lot..

things happen on me ,on others,

all brings a lot of thing towards me..

year 2009.

year 2010.

ppl going to change,

i gotta cope to it,

and accept the changes..

problem is nt really a problem for me,

the problem is how long i take to solve it..

new year,new self..

this wht other self said..

for me,

i jus wanna maintain..

i wanna be the ah black,

whom ppl who know me..

ah black,in 2010.

touch the limit,

break the limit,

burn my soul,

form the flame.

its more than enough..

things happened,

nothing can be changed.

i am glad tat i chatted with u...

the answer u gave me,

is more than enough..

thanks..

i am glad that u tell me the truth..

however,

i am here to clarify,

i hope to be ur friend anyway..

if u really scare of me..

tell me why..

i will try to explain ur doubt..

if u wan me to leave u alone..

tell me,

i will,if tat's wht u wan.

Taboo

This few day,

something happened..

that reminds me a taboo i set few years ago..

i came back from west malaysia,

i saw the taboo..

i go and touch...

cause i think time might be about to break the taboo..

and i end up with pain and aches.

in short.i lost a friend.

taboo?i guess i should touch it..

no1 knows wht exactly will happen.

and no1 will know.

isnt it a good way to solve things,

if i jus leave the taboo there?

when i am alone..

when u r alone,

wht will you be doing then?

for me,

i cannot let myself alone..

for me alone means,

free and nothing to do and no one is around you.

i hate alone,

i hate free.

cause it keep my brain thinking.

thinking something unnecessary.

if i am with friends but i am free,

it will be ok.

cause gt friend to chit chat with..

if i am busy with work only,

it will be ok too..

cause busy keep my brain full,

doesnt leave it have any space to think something unnecessary.

be frank,

i dun have much good friend tat will keep in touch,

my handphone wont have anyone sms me..

pathetic..

for friends tat dun like me,

they will be quite happy to see those line.

since i have few companion,

then i guess i can only make myself busy..

it make me tired,

my tired brain wont think too much..

i dunno how ppl look at me,

i dunno wht ppl think,when they heard "Tan Si Nan"

but i am sure..

not much ppl really understand me,

even me myself dun understand myself.

i am who i am..

i admit..

i am pathetic..

i try to forget it..

but i only think about this,

when i am alone..

i hate..

when i am alone..

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tag

被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。
(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目
(3) 写完请点10位朋友，不可不点
(4) 点完后请通知那10位朋友他被点了
5)不可点那位点你的人^.^ V被点到的：
1. chua
2. clement
3. ant
4. jia chee
5. xiao bai
6. jay
7. grace
8. chun sian
9. yan qian
10.bong

（我点朋友，不一定是写部落格的）

1.[05号的人脾气怎么样？]任性~~
2. [07号有男/女朋友吗？]她说“不知道”
3. [你对02号的第一印象是...]野狼一只
5. [ 04号最怕什么东西? ]？？麻烦
6. [ 你对09号的第一印象是... ]ying ler 的好朋友
7. [ 01号认识02号吗? ]当然~我们都是兄弟~~
8. [ 那10号认识03号吗? ]知道~但是不熟
09. [ 06号相不相信这世界上有鬼? ]不知道……可能？
10. [ 08号的星座是? ]我不了解星座~
11. [ 你跟03号的关系如何？ ]已经到了普通人理解不了的程度了。。。hiak hiak hiak...
12. [ 05号读哪呢? ]美中 ==
13. [ 你跟07号和09号，哪个比较熟? ]yanqian
14. [ 你对03号最深刻的印象是... ]智力型的男人
15. [ 07号的兴趣是？ ]吃~！！
16. [ 你喜欢和02号聊天吗? ]喜欢~但是2号是个大忙人
17. [ 06号喜欢的人姓什么？ ]忘了～
18. [ 10号是个怎么样的人？ ]这个由大家自己想吧～
19-[ 08号对你而言是？ ]好朋友
20-[ 04号有跟你吵过架吗？]印象中。。没有～
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1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的: jaz
2. 你们认识多久呢: 还不到一年
3. 有没有对他很想说的但是说不出口话？ 没有吧？
4. 她/他对你来说是... 一个朋友~
5. 你觉得他/她的个性如何 ? 还不是很熟
6. 请问他/她的电话号码最后四个字是？ 你说呢？
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
問 : 对你来说，刚刚被点到的人里哪个最重要？

说了会制造混乱-。-

問 : 对你来说，什么样的求婚方式最特别？

告诉你就不特别了。当然，我有我的一套

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問 : 一天你要是死了，上帝让你带一样东西上天堂，你会带什么？
悲伤，（悲伤都带上去了，大家不就没悲伤了么？）

問 : 吵架时最讨厌对方...

无理取闹

問 : 如果你找到了阿拉丁神灯但只能许一个愿望，你会想要...

某些事情没发生过。

問 : 你会选择爱你的人，还是你爱的人？

我爱的人，因为爱我的人，若我不爱，却贸贸然去接受她，不是对她不公平么？

問 : 每当窗外下雨时，你会想到...

在世界各地的朋友们，你们好么？

問 : 你会提出什么样分手的理由？=X
什么原因分手，

就说什么原因。

但若是我发现她骗我，

我不会告诉她这是分手的原因，

因为，她想隐瞒我，

不就是不想让我知道么？

問 : 你想在什么年龄结婚？

找到适合的人，适合的时间，适合的地点

問 : 小时候印象最深刻的事是？
大概没什么印象吧。。记忆力不好啦

問 : 你对爱和喜欢有什么不同的看法？？？？？

喜欢会变成爱。喜欢有很多种。但爱未必会变成喜欢

secret

everyone have their own secret.

someone's secret,

we have no right to go and figure it out.

everyone keep secret for their own reason,

for me,there are 3 type of secret,

1st.

secret that will keep it in deepest of heart,

not even best friend will know,

the secret only know by themselves

2nd.

secret that let some specific ppl know a bit..

they are waiting correct ppl to ask at the correct time.

3rd.

secret,that even let ppl know.

but will nt let optehr ppl know further detail of it.

one's might contain all 3 type of secret.

i dunno which secret i have the most..

i have my own secret,

bt on the same time,

i am also the secret keeper for ppl..

i dunno how much ppl believe me,

but i appreciate ppl that believe in me

i dunno why i write this post,

but i jus write it..

mayb too bored stay at home gua..

CHLD

CHLD stand for

Chung hua Lion Dance

i come back at 23th,

24th is their ending session,

i was told to go to watch their 24 season drum performance..

however,i wanna say taht,

this camp is quite a success,

and the season drum performance is marvelous.

Louis,

u done a good job leading them,

jim and ohter AJK,

u all did well for the camp,

forget every conflict happen before,during and after the camp,

cause these conflict are the thing tat make the camp successful,rite?

u all are very successful!!work hard ya!

why?

well,

this post is to a friend,

i am nt scolding or wht..

jus wondering..

when one's propose to another one,

dun care is male propose to female or female propose to male,

it takes a big courage.

even though everyone wish the outcome to be good.

but thing like that doesnt happen everyday...

but after propose,

wht will happen?

in chung hua, the first gal i propose,

end up with no conversation for 2 years,

luckily nw she is ok to talk with me nw,

and she is studying at other place nw..

at least,we can still talk..

2nd gal,which become my first gf,

after we break up, she still can talk to me,

i am glad that i din lost a friend.

she nw studying at other place,

and have a bf also,

i am glad to hear that,

third gal,whom i propose before i go kampar,perak for my further study,

i still try to let her understand that,

i jus wan to be friend back,

i propose last minute,

is due to i wanna let her know,

and i dun wanna myself to regret.

saw her few days ago,

talk to her for few lines,

asking her address so i can post the present i prepared for her to her house,

of course, as a friend.

at the moment i try to get her address,she say no pen and paper,

then i tell her to sent to me through handphone,

actually,i am going her a chance,

i dun wajnna force her..

she really dun wanna sent to me,

then i need to figure it out why,

i din manage to see her online,facebook or even msg.

she din reply me,

her blog become private,i think and move around-.-

sometime i think,

is she really wanna ignore me?

if she still scare tat i will still like her,

then i would jus say,the gal i like nw is nt her dy..

later i will provide further info :p

however,these are jus my thinking lar..\mayb i think too much

to her, i jus wanna say tat..

dun ignore me lar ~,

be friends,k?

even though i wondering will she read my blog..

hahaha..

well,

for the forth gal,

i am nt going to propose yet.

since propose nw will be against my principle,

i wont touch gal with bf,

she gt a bf nw,so let her be with her bf,

no point trying to rebut her with others,

she is nt a thing,but a human,

she gt her own decision,

so jus respect wht she did.

this post is written sincerely from my heart.

hope she will read it,

or hope she will reply my message~~hahahaa

back home~

hahah~i am back to miri dy~~

well..

i jus stay here a while,as usual..

i will be leaving at 6th of jan..

Back Home..

well..

as usual..

the best place,is home..

aahahha..

a lot of things happened in my house,

a bit messy..

this time,

i come back..

gotta try to solve everything..

but still depends on the situation..

by the way..

today i use Mas to come back miri..

and i realise..

their food r really shock me..

a rice,mineral water and a cake, these are usual food..

but they also serve with...

Baskin Robin ice cream-.-

hahaha...

however,

i keep it for my family..

i believe they din eat that before..

good things are meant to share rite?

haha...

narh..gotta sleep now..

nite~

exam~~

yo hoo~~tomorrow exam..

but haven finish study..

haha..

after tomorrow then the next exam ill be next tuesday..

then..

the next thing going to happen is..

i go back miri..

yahoo~

finally can go back miri..

after around 2 month..

hahaha~~

by the way..

the title for this post is exam..

wish me good luck ba~~

解铃还须。。。。。

the title is a Chinese phrase.

i din complete the whole line,

since,i cant achieve it.

this Chinese phrase means,

problem need to be solved by the ppl who start the problem

indeed,

i solve it.

so now,

i am ok dy,

i solve it in a correct way,

which myself never expect.

i talk, and clarify,

that particular understand,

and we are happy with the result,

i need to say thank you to her.

because of her,

i manage to make my mind of on a lot of things.

hahaha..

i say i din solve it by my own,

this is because some of my friends helped me,

my toilet mate,calvin,

my toilet-companion,ant(remember we 2 wash toilet together?)

and a lot.

my mood was damn teruk tat time,

bad tempered, and a lot,

which i never thought i will,

however,

i manage to solve it,

after i think for a while,

it takes courage,

but i am glad i manage to vomit it out.

hahaha..

for friends tat worry about me,

thanks,

ah black is now ok dy.

Thanks.

and of course,

thanks to her too.

i din mention her name out,

cause i dun think she wan,

for those who knows,

please keep it as a secret.

if she wanna show who she is,

she will.hahaha.~

*if i scolded anyone,i apologise.

again?!

again,

i am here.

currently,

sitting in front of my laptop,

listen to rock song,

to busy up my mind.

looking for things to do,

meaningless or meaningful

anything it would be.

i am escaping rite?

wait lah.i will be ok.

i am ok.

lol~

after 15 minute from the blog post i posted-.-

i realize i have nothing else to do.

spam blog i guess.

my house now damn silent.

everyone is still sleeping,

while i am the only one opened the door.

at here,

i wanna apologise that,

sorry for my blog post that is damn boring.

now,

my brain only come out with some words

"Write! black! write more"

mayb my brain dun wanna study gua..

well

since today is the last day for the short sem,

i guess i should wish everyone enjoy their holiday~

and also.

i gotta wish the team that having a video shoot at kampar is successful.

tat's all,i guess..

mayb i will come back in 15 minutes to write another one,

who knows?~

Today.

Today,

i am damn free.

canceled everything.

Ntg to..?!

Smile~smile~

arg~

delete?

i dunno wht i am doing right now.

2.12am now.

tomorrow hv class at 8.

keep reading a blog post over and over again.

listen to a song over and over again.

i cant feel myself now.

should i end my blog?

suddenly this come out to my mind.

cant sleep.

wonder why.

even though if i know why,

jus wanna ignore it.

i dunno wht i wanna do now..

spam blog is the only way,

i guess...

black,u will understand de,rite?

"black,u will understand de,rite?"

i keep telling this to myself for thousands times.

but,am i?

or jus for the sake for giving myself a reason?

a reason for everything.

damn.

black,u will understand de,rite?

i jus realise~

well..until nw,

i jus realise.

i really have something tat wanna write here,

but cannot write here.

sienz.

i am changing,

but why?

I am glad.

Its glad to see the gal i am interested to be in relationship.

its sounds weird,

but its true,

cause i am not good in this,

even though i heard a lot from all my fellow friends,

Its good for her,

as long as she is happy.

i dun believe in distance love,

she is quite a distance with me,

and also,

i am nt a good bf,

thus, this can ensure tat the guy she got is confirm better.

its ok,

its enough,

i wont be emo de,

i hope they are happy,

and bless them.

I,am glad.

hahaha~

^o^

bakery workshop~

today nothing much to do..

i dun feel like wanna study (even though i never )

watching anime~doing stupid thing~

weird thought coming up~

etc etc..

so now come to the mood of blogging..

this bakery workshop happened long time ago..

learn a lot,play a lot,and eat some-.-

so jus simply post some picture out ba~

although the product not so pretty,

but js try to show wht i have done there-.-

well,i guess i need to admit,i am nt good in arts~

tada~this is my product tat i am proud of~~

some cake produced~~

well,this is still acceptable i guess~

Other ppl presentation~

This a presentation of a friend of mine,

well..

nothing much to say,

jus to share some picture here..

hahaha..

Their group~~

another group~~

guys also need to make up one~~

well,he is a man, jus he need to role play as mother, thus, he is practicing!!

Hope they are sucessful~

well...

jus now saw some picture,

then post it up also lor~~

i am the coach for season drum society at pei yuan,kampar,perak

well..

last few week their chairman asked me to go and teach,

since they have the initiative to learn,

even though i am didnt get paid,

i also willing to teach..

i change their drum set a bit,

and they perform well..

however,

it didnt achieve the level i want yet..

far from it..

however,

it is satisfied for training for 2 days..

Finish PRESENTATION!!

Yeah..~

finally..

presentation for this semester had officially finish!

This sem only have 2 sub for final..

and it fall on 16th of dec and 23th of dec..

sad..

cant go back LZ be volunteer!

Narh~~
i am still young..

have chance.

by the way.

here have a sad things wanna say..

Chua, best friend of mine,

is going to oversea to pursue his dream~

narh..

kinda of missing him~

hardly contact each other when he is there~

here is some picture taken~haha..

beauty and the beast T.T

Dun jealous, she is nt mine, at least,

nt mine yet~hahaha...jkjk

Did i do smtg wrong?

one of the handsome guy in my class~

dun envy me ya~

Mafia Boss is here~~

I am so luckily~~

(They look so fairer when they stand beside me~~)

upload pic agaiN!

This is taken during last sem..

of course..

3 single guy..last time

go to drink together lo..

but now left 2 single guy only--.--

he looks like dying

2 famous gay in UTAR!

he wanna say:"tonight i going to drink 10 bottles!"

lai lai lai~upload pic~

THis pic was captured long time ago..

however..

it still make me think..

HOW LONG I DIN WATCH SUPERMAN!!!?????!!!

WHY IT BECOME LIKE THIS I DUNNO DE?

心情,糟透了.

刚刚接到一通电话.

说我收到一件快邮.

什么意思呢?

是不是我那天寄出去的快邮,

被寄回来了呢?

心情...糟透了.

Spoiled

Well..

i seldom blog recently..

nt i no mood..

is because the mood spoiled.

Imagine.

the internet connection damn slow until..

u need to wait for 10 minute to go facebook?

upload pic half hour waiting in the end it tell u"webpage nt found"

msn keep come out with msg like

"The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:"

even blogspot when u typing it say

"could not connect with blogspot..bla bla bla"

Shit lah~

sometime really feel like wanna go and buy a maxis broadband

The internet is always slow for few reason.

first,

the connection really down

2nd,

UNLIMITED spd download.

3rd,

Streaming

A lot of friend say,

"go and tell them lah~"

sure i told them before.

sometime,

they will forget to on their limit for their download,

etc etc..

Narh..

tat's why i dun blog for these day..

upload pic gotta wait for long..

i dun wan

jus now go and checked my email..

hmm..

i saw smtg interesting..

it is smtg like a talk about "rest"

i saw the mail.i del it.

cause i think no need to rest..

or i can say.

i dun wan to rest..

i wanna be slightly busy..

cause when i am free...

i tend to think a lot..

i think i better use my time on a better place..

i dun wan..

by the way..

no1 chat to me recently-.-

narh..

am i bad in socialization?

i think i am.

Forget.

These few day i am damn busy..

coming up event.

talent time

cdc gathering

lion dance practice

season drum practice

pei yuan teaching

assignment-

individual speech(oral comm)

group presentation(oral comm)

Sociology presentation

sunzi

mid-term

final

etc etc..

narh..

today..

i asked myself.

:"black,are u forget to post smtg on the blog for too long time?"

so i decided to post this

however.

when i try to sign in

my laptop tat suppose to log in automatically..

it require me to type my password..

swt-.-

really too long time din come dy-.-

by the way..

din post anything here also ntg different.

hahaha.

no1 will read it~

narh.

for my own fun only har~?

Good luck!

This car..

i bet a lot of friend saw before..

the most special place is..

the back mirror of the Anser is stick with a lot of ultraman stickers.

well..

he is Chua's car,a good bro of mine..

last holiday i manage to go back and meet with him..

which is very rare.

hahaha..

however..

i bet this is the last time i manage to saw him at MIRI..

he is leaving to somewhere soon..

narh..

when can i see u again,bro..

Nvm..

bro forever!

better find me as "兄弟(heng tai)"when u marry ya!

hahaha...

Good luck in everything in u!

i am in blooging mood now..

suddenly feel wanna blog..

hmm..

but i think i should control a bit..

cause last time kena scold by a fellow

a fellow who studying at KTAR quantity survey..

so..

better control a bit..

if nt...

kena scold again..

however..

my blog is BETTER than him

cause

HIS BLOG NEVER UPDATE!!!!!!

(暗示某某人是时候update 了)

SIngle to double.

yesterday..i go and click around facebook..

saw someone's facebook post some shout out.

said tat she need someone nw..

tat gal is currently too far from me.

but i still remember the money she is with us.

saw her profile.

marriage status: single.

suddenly feel wanna kacau her..

wanna ask her..

"wanna be double?"

but i stopped.

cause i know the answer.

Kampar

welll..

i am here at kampar dy~~

ahahaaha...

i tot me and benjamin should be the earliest 2 fellow who reach UTAR,

but it seems its nt..

some friends like nelson also here dy~..

hhahaha..

but the environment here now is damn comfortable..

however,

this comfortable environment only manage to tahan till today..

tomorrow..

every1 coming back..

then..

westlake will full with carSSSSSSSSSSssSSS..

narh..

damn "dulan" with those car-.-

nvm,i enjoy the environment now!

千言万语

这个放假,

有千言万语要说,

但是,

要等我回去,

一次过,一口气,一股屁~

的..

放出来,写出来,喷出来~~

感觉好恶~

啊哈哈哈...

回去再说吧~~

他,唱出了,某些人的心声...包括我..

的确.

他唱出了我的心声,

但是,我决定,

放弃了..

但是...需要点时间..

没有我想象中,那么的容易.

歌词如下,他是一首旧歌,但是却让我白天不厌,

谢谢刘某有天找我出去时,机缘巧合下听到的...

一开始 我以为 爱本来会很容易
所以没有 经过允许 就把你放心底
直到后来有一天 你和他走在一起
我才发现 原来爱情 不是真心就可以
我感动天 感动地 怎么感动不了你
明明知道 没有结局 却还死心塌地
我感动天 感动地 怎么感动不了你
总相信爱情会有奇迹 都是我骗自己
以为自己不再去想你
保持不被刺痛的距离
就算早已忘了我自己
却还想要知道你的消息

感触良多呢..

脑袋又噼里啪啦乱想东西了..

有一种勇气叫放弃。

今天去了parkson..

由于我到达目的地的时间与相约的时间有点早，

便到处跑跑。。

平常打死也不进书店的我。。

竟然无端端跑到popular书局，

更恐怖的是，我竟然会去拿书来读。。

但是，看了一下子，

我的眼睛看到了一个标题。。

“有一种勇气叫放弃”

看了，还真让我觉得我进来书局是对的。。

封面不起眼，

但是简简单单的几句话，

却让我的思绪活动起来。。。

封面上写着，

“有一种勇气叫放弃”

放弃是一种智慧，是一种勇气与潇洒，

放弃是更深层面的进取，

生活有时候会逼迫你，

不得不交出权力，

不得不放走机遇，

甚至于。。

要抛弃爱情。。

你不可能什么都可以的到，所以，在生活中，你必须要懂得学会放弃。

看到这本书，简直就是让我自己稅服我自己去放弃么？

啊哈哈哈。。。

我不知道我是否因为这本书的标题而失去理智，

才买下这本书的。。

但是。。

读一读，自己觉得还不错。

放，放弃了么？

听着部落格的歌。。

自己不知道是冷静下来，

还是开始伤感了。。

想，了很多。。

很多。。

决定放弃了。。

原因吗？

大概是因为自己给不了她任何更好的生活。。

算了吧。。

至少自己有所进展，

有了点决定。。

昨天晚上，

玩游戏时，

问 A君 一个问题，

说：“你还喜欢她么？有没有举动去追？”

A君的答案就跳过吧。。

不过在场的一位朋友说。。

：“若没打算有举动，那么就放弃。”

听了。。觉得也对。。

找到了几件东西。。

一堆让我一直潜意识中给自己机会联系到她的东西。。

会把它们解决掉的。。

我对自己说。。

我。。。

放弃了。。

但是，说放就放。。那么容易么？

看来。。今晚自己一个人和闷酒吧。。

希望，她快乐。我别无要求。

若有人有什么要说，就说吧。。

放弃了，也很容易接受comment的

回到美里。。back to miri(bilingual*trying)

回到美里。。

back to miri

现在已经几天了。。

already few day..

前几天就每天熬夜。。

few days ago,every night sleep late..

因为一位好朋友。。

cause,a good friend of mine,

thak，要回去了。。

thak,is going back kl,

难得和他见面。。

its hard to meet him..

当然尽量度过美好的春宵啦。。

of course gotta use every available time with him la..

哈哈哈。。。

haaha...

但是遗憾的是，

however,i feel sorry..

我尽然不能去送机。。

cause i cant go and sent his flight..

因为晚上有 dinner..

cause at night gt dinner..

妈妈不肯给我去。。

mom dun permit me to go..

对不起了，兄弟。。

sorry..brother!

你去us 的，我会去！！！

when u go us,i will go to airport for sure!

因为回到美里，有点忙，

due to i am quite busy after i back to miri

所以就没什么update部落格。。

i din update my blog..

现在想写点东西。。

now,i feel like wanna write smtg,

因为。。

because..

想起了她。。

i thinking of her..

今天和朋友喝茶，

today me and my friend go yum cha..

朋友随手拿了我的电话。。

a friend take my handphone

一看封面，说了一句“你醒了没？”

when she saw the wall paper, she said :'are u awake?'

的确。。。

indeed..

我不甘愿醒来。。

i dun wan to wake up..

明知没可能，也不可能，也不可以有可能，

obviously,impossible,cant be possible, can cannot have such possibility..

但是，就是放不了。。

but i jus cant let go..

谢谢一位兄弟。。

wanna say thank you to one of my bro..

今晚陪我做了一些怪怪的事情。。

tonight accompany do some weird stuff..

哈哈哈。。

hahahaha..

但是，

but..

若人家问我，

if someone ask me..

我还是说。。

i will still say..

我爱她。。

i love her..

大概是我不知道爱，

mayb i dunno love..

但是，她，总离不开我的思维。。

but in fact,she jus cant get out of my mind..

哈哈。。。

haha..

大概成了一种习惯了吧。。

mayb this had become a part of my life gua..

哈哈哈。。。

ahhaha

要睡了，再见！

wanna sleep le..bye..

{* for friends who know who was it..please remain silent..i write this post,but i dun wan it to cause any chaos..i dun wanna disturb her life..thanks}

照片.

这些是上个星期的相片..

这是一个UTAR的event..

说是要把它办到很豪华..

结果..

豪华到.........

要去坑helper的自助餐钱来cover budget..

结果给了钱的helper当晚因为食物不够,

没得吃-.-

由于我是helper兼表演者..

然后加上一些事情..

我有免费的一餐..

哈哈..

我做helper本来是因为要和julian合作的..

但是阴错阳差..和manager有点代沟的关系..

所以很高兴的换去和另一位朋友--小安 合作..

他是一个很不错的logistic manager,

至于他的assistant..就不说啦..(因为不想说坏话..要知道的msn我。。哈哈哈。。)

至于自助餐阿。。

因为我知道。。不值得。（许多原因加上我吃不多。。）

所以我拒绝了。。

但是。。因为节目上出现了一些冲突。。

为了安抚我们的愤怒。。

有人supply我们晚餐。。

哈哈。。

当我吃的时候。。

吃的特别尽力！！

哈哈。。有些食物不错吃啦。。

有manager看到我。。

说“ helper 不可以吃啦！”

我告诉她说“我现在是表演者！！ ”

啊哈哈哈。。

但是我也有行善哦。。。

因为helper不可以吃嘛。。

但是，我已表演者身份去拿，

他们以我朋友的身份吃，不就可以吗？

哈哈哈。。

所以吃到一半，

我变成圣诞男孩！

去派食物。。哈哈哈。。

这个event基本上不错啦。。

但是要感谢一些committee..注意。。一些而已。。

哈哈。。

988~~事实上，我没听过--。--

和主持人拍照。。

但是由于小弟的相机不好。。

在艳阳高照的情况下。。出现这样的相片。。

一群不约而同一起船白衣的朋友！！

白痴照。没什么特别-。-

我和prof Chua是好朋友！

哈哈哈。。！！！

am i?

well..few days ago..

jus like normal..

talk cock with my friend..

suddenly..

i realise one of my friend remain silent..

i asked

"are u ok"?

he say

"sure la..y?"

i say..

"narh..ntg lah..u nt ok also wont look for help de lah.."

he say

"cheh..tat is u ho..u r the one wont look for help when u urself need it"

hmmm..

i hang for while..

but when i think about it..

i dunno..

am i?

ahhaa..

for me i no problem mar..

so din look for help lo..

bt is it make wont look for help even if i need it?

hmmm

wondering..

前几天..

前几天..

真的过得不是滋味..

被一大堆的lecture note压倒喘不过气来...

真不好受..

很不想去回忆..

希望这一次考试的成绩不错吧..

不然的话..

我自己会接受不了的阿...阿哈哈...

考完试..

考完试..

根本没快乐的感觉..

因为最后一张的考试..

自己实在是没什么信心..

coursework mark 自己拿的很客气..

30分却只拿少过一半..

这考试占70分..

真不知道自己可以拿多少分..

我不要cgpa 1 leh...

degree 了..

没办法..

算了吧..

反正都考过了..

怎么后悔都没办法..

开心一点吧...

深呼吸..

呼...

深呼吸一下..

久违了的部落格阿..

这几天ban自己不可以写部落格..

因为自己连读书的时间都没有了..

若再去写部落格..

岂不是自己挖坟墓?!

好啦..

考完了..

是时候...

尽力!

用力!

努力!

大力!

用尽全力!

的去写一番!!

last..

well..gotta have my last paper in about 1 hour..

the exam start at 9,end at 11..

i am excited with the time i gotta have after 11..

but i langsung nt excited with the exam at 9..

shit la..

NO CONFIDENCE AT ALL..

my coursework for this sub damn low..

i dun wan fail leh..

i dun wan get gcpa 1 leh..

T.T

no confidence at all..

haiz..

HOPE I CAN DO WELL IN THIS EXAM BA..

last subject..atomic structure..

celaka..

i going to win no matter wht!!!!!!

aaAaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MIA

well..exam comin soon..

so these day i will nt write post..

www.blacksano.blogspot.com is down till 19th!

anything ,anywishes..

write here ba!!

thanks..

starting to MIA!

missing in action!

nt studying!

but sleeping!

stress

well..

it is hard to believe,

for me myself also.

i feel stress for this study week?!

hahaha..

this is due to some thing happen......

for this week

which i suppose to study a damn thick lecture note

..

i end up wih..

finishing a 51 episode law of ueki anime.

shit lar..

test is coming soon

this saturday i going to sit for my first exam..

wht am i doing now?

facebooking~

anime-ing~

blogging~

chatting~

wondering~

waste timing~

cham..

*after 30 minutes talking with my buddy..

feel better dy..thanks mr liew~!!

月

前几天．．

在金宝看到了这月亮．．

放心，这是正版的相片．．

不是photoshop的．．

哈哈哈．．

在这里，才能够看到这种奇观．．

在世界各地的朋友，

你们看到了么？

还有．．

她，会看到么？

对于没看到的朋友．．

我在这里给你们看图吧～

生日,

昨天,和朋友去 喝茶,

因为一位朋友的生日..

陪一陪他..

哈哈..

结果..

跑去喝酒..

喝了大约3桶..

这一次,

我和比较多..

和之前比起来..

着次放纵多了..

因为之前一直在克制自己..

那晚,

有说有笑..

但是不知道为什么..

心中的某处,

却在伤心..

我明白..

大概是因为..

每个生日,

我都在等..

等一封永远都不会寄过来的简讯...

生日,

对我而言,变成阴影了么?

哈哈..

因为没有吧..

但是老实说,

昨晚是有点企图灌醉自己,

但是因为自己要骑脚车回家,

便克制自己了..

我的性格。。

我的性格。。

我生性就是这样。。

我的朋友会有很多很多。。

但是若说到兄弟。。

却是少到可怜。。

但是没关系。。

兄弟要精不要多。。

但是，会进入我兄弟或好朋友名单的人

我是有一定的方式的。。。

这些人，

一定要曾经做过一些，

我看到，并很impress的作为。。

好比说，

办事能力强，

technical 能力强，

领导能力强。。

若某某的一些举动让我尊敬他们，

我会去挺他们，

因为他们值得。。

目前，在UTAR，

我认同的人不多。。

我认同的人，

我会去帮他们，

若要我举例嘛。。

好比说，

julian 的 technical

alan 的 decoration,

clement 的 支持，

xiao an 的能力。。

等等。。

这些朋友，

我若帮的上忙，

我肯定会去帮忙。。

我的性格就是那样。。

没有一定能力的人，

我不会诚服于他的，

大件事！

大件事了咯。。

考试将近。。

我却一点也没想到读书的心情。。

大概有些人也跟我一样把。。

但是。。

不一样的是，

他们在班上有听课，

我却在班上睡觉！

这一次。。

不好搞哦。。。=。=

救命~

部落格..

部落格换歌了..

好听么?

给点评语哦~~哈哈哈,,

若不好听..

我换一首我喜欢的..

最近。。

考试将近。。

明天是我biotech year 1 sem1的最后一天。。

但是。。

就在这特别的一天。。

我们有考试。。

没关系。。

这不是重点。。

考试将近。。

我一点也没想要读书的心情。。

这也不是重点。。

重点在后头。。

这几天。。

我开我房间的门。。

我们房间外的commom area安静的不得了。。

原因很简单。。

我家housemate开始各做个的。。

现在，

我更了解我兄弟，顺义那时候的感觉了。。

这个学期。。

改变了很多。。

以前热闹的3楼，

如今，

就好像别人的房子一样，

所有housemate都只在自己房间。。

其实，

3楼有4个男人而已。。

一个单身汉（我）

一个只在金宝才是单身汉的男人（calvin）

一个女朋友在foundation读书的男人，

一个女朋友和我读同一个class 的男人。。

现在的我，

只能够和calvin相依为命。。

惨不忍睹呢。。

若他回ipoh。。

我就独自一人了。。。

冷冷清清呢~~~

有好有坏..

单身,

是目前最适合我的状态..

因为我还早不到一个能让我容忍她的一切的女孩..

找到的那一个,

喜欢的却不是我..

看一看..

其实有女朋友..

有时候也挺不舒服的..

有时候..自己要在百忙之中,抽空时间陪她..

有时候..明明自己很烦了,还要想办法哄她..

有时候..自己在做什么要想她报告..

有时候..要在她与朋友之间作选择..

有时候..自己的电脑要给她用..

有时候..要看她的脸色说话..

很多..

想一想..

我原来在幸福之中..

不过最大的原因..

应该是因为自己还没找到自己真的爱的女孩吧~哈哈哈..

单身万岁!!

大家来讨论！

其实，

我最近有个问题。。

（不是感情问题。。）

我看到有些朋友的部落格，

看到一些陌生人的部落格。。

有些人，

把一切不满写在部落格当中。。

把对一些人的讨厌，不悦写在当中，

当然不可能写的明明白白。。

针对的对象往往都只用“他，它，她 ”或一些代号命名。。

当然，

我不是想说那么写是不对的。。

但是。。

我突发奇想。。

无聊的脑袋出了个问题给自己。。

是不是因为你讨厌这个人，

而使到他做的每一件事情都让你厌恶呢？

可能他部落格写的东西，实在述说他的一天，是那么的美好，

你却觉得他是在骗人？

可能他对身边的人一直抱着感谢的心情去珍惜对方，

而你却觉得他虚伪？

可能他只是看你一眼，

而你却觉得他在瞪你？

可能他在和别人说悄悄话，

而你却觉得他在说你坏话？

我觉得会，

因为你讨厌那个人，

他的印象在你脑海中，

已经非常糟了。。

加上若身边有朋友影响，

你讨厌那个人的程度会迅速加深。。

想一想，

那么那个人不是很无辜么？

可能他不小心得罪你一次，

却让你恨他几千年。。

甚至他自己都不知道为什么你那么讨厌他呢！

得罪人，

有时候是无心的。。

但是我们往往会怀恨在心。。

我没说我不会，

但是我讨厌的人不多。。

（应该是吧。。因为我会忘了我讨厌的人。。记忆力不好啦。。）

若有人也是觉得我是个虚伪的人，

我又该如何去挽救呢？

伤脑筋呢。。

对了，今天是国庆日，

merdeka x 7!!!

希望大家多多的写comment 吧。。

大家来讨论！！！

小弟感激不尽！

谢谢

疯了..

这个月我疯了..

一个月post了将近50个文章..

下个月应该不会写那么多了吧?

写的东西,

没人有兴趣。。

写了，也没有了留言。。

我的部落格真的那么冷清清么？

来来去去那几个人。。

我要我的部落格很热闹的。。

为什么不能？T。T

hair cut~

today wai siong go to have a hair cut!!

see...

ultraman probation..

he is going to be ultraman soon..

hahah..

he wanna show how handsome he is..-.-

however..

the hair cut is effective..

after he have the hair cut..

he look it..

吴尊~~hahah..

any1 wan his number?or msn?hahaa...

stupid?or irresponsible?

This issue had happen few times dy!!

jus this time i too free go and take picture..

well..

at westlake..

there is some1 who

dunno how to drive,

dunno how to be responsible..

dunno how to think of others,

dunno how to park a car,

dunno how to be rational..

hmm..

see..

there are 2 car in a small lorong..

wakao..

they own the road a?

if ppl drove in how?

reverse again?

use brain ma..

the driver menang..HOPELESS..

better go and hv license exam again..

sure fail one-.-

this is the plat number of the kancil

this is the plat number for the proton..

i dunno which car park there first..

but according to my friend..

they say the kancil always park there de..

no matter wht..

the another dive that park at the side when they see there is another car parked beside

is really...

haiz..

dun wanna say-.-

cant they..

use their brain a bit?

i wonder..

by the way..

i dun have a car..

so actually it doesnt cause any problem for me..

but please la!

think for others!

selling technique..Alike,but different...

today go tesco..

things here very special..

tesco choice stuff and the original stuff is always put beside.

haha..

its a good selling technique rite?

people tend to compare the price..

and some ppl will choose the tesco choice stuff as it is a lot cheaper..

some mayb blur blur take wrong..

hahaha...

tesco,a dangerous place..hahah...

see..its jus beside!!

2 finger?hahaha...alike with kit kat

tada..the ori one!!

ahaha...boring..jus wanna blog~

Good day..

hmm..see the weather?

i hope everyday is such a good weather..

however..

sometime i appreciate sunny day and rainny day too..

hahaa..

cause they make me love this type of weather VERY much~

its beautiful,for me~:p

last chem lab

Last friday..

we had end our Year 1 Trimester 1 chemistry lab class!!!

wahahah..

we are free from report!!!

see..

every1 so happy is a last lab..is here to end the claSS!!

some of them even take chance to take pic !!!OMG!

i regret din take with them-.-

or mayb they dun wan also lar~~

since i am nt handsome enough..

hahah..

mayb because it is the last class..

our lecturer purposely to be late..

make us have memory on this..

yan qian dam tulan with it...

haha..

jkjk..

for our last cclass..

we going to ddeal with this-.-

a box of thing for age 12-18-.-

i am 20..how o?

every1 having fun playing with it-.-

hui min~havin fun also-.-]

huimin plan to make the giraffe=.=

its a new element..

i bet this must add into the periodic table

gangs and lecturer

posing

me and lecturer

ah heng face look so suang~~wht is he thinking?

we are"NOOB SENIOR!"

super junior de friend!!

hahhaaw...

with this,we end our last lab-.-